I feel like I have to be successful for everyone else
I'm 21, doing well in my career, have my own place, my own car, very financially stable, etc... I came from a broken home though, we were poor, had abusive parents, etc... when I turned 18, I promised myself that I had to be successful and I've followed through on that. I'm doing well but I still feel the weight of it all, I've done things that I didn't want to do but did them because I had to, things I'd never tell anyone. I feel like I need to be successful for my brother, my gf, my future kids, my family, everyone. If something happens to them or they need help, I need to help them. Because if I'm not then I'm nothing. If I fall apart and everyone leaves me, I'll still need to be there for myself and I at least need to be successful for myself.
Whenever I've expressed this feeling to anyone they've told me that "you shouldn't look at life like that" or "you don't need to do that to yourself" but I can't help it. I've always felt as a child that "nobody is coming for you, nobody is coming to help you, you need to suck it up and push through life". My family says I work too much, that they never see me, they wish I was around more, all kinds of things.