Got confronted by family members July 4th
So July 4th was going well. Me, my wife and my kids were all swimming at a family members home and we just got done playing board games. Then a family member (my wife’s side) starts asking questions about faith and directing it toward me.
I instantly start to think “oh boy.
Last year I spoke with my wife’s brother about my faith (I’m agnostic). I met my wife as a Christian and after years of marriage that changed. My wife however was a believer but not religious but has grown in her faith. Anyway… my wife and my wife’s brother knows about me being agnostic now. They know I grew up in the church, was saved multiple times and baptized multiple times, was an usher and on our choir. But… there’s too many issues that my mind can’t get around with lack of evidence. So I can’t prove nor disprove god.
My wife’s brother and this family member went fishing recently and long story short I wouldn’t be surprised if he said something.
Fast forward to after he started asking me things I just told him how I felt and believed. There were things I said where he straight up said “yeah I don’t know how to answer that”… like I said if god is omnipresent and omnipotent how do we have free will? And if he is and everything is predetermined then why create a bunch of beings to eventually burn in hell. The conversation went on for hours, my wife was crying at one point questioning things with marriage. She said “I just wish sometimes when I had a bad day you would pray for me”. The family member we were speaking to dropped the “I’m talking to you because I love you” line…
It was like a Christian intervention. And the entire time I’m trying to explain “faith is personal. Don’t be sad for me I’m not sad for myself. I love you all regardless.” and man… it was tough just watching them do mental gymnastics around me being the loving and understanding one that is logically making sense here.
Anyway… had nowhere else to vent about this so here it is. Happy 4th everyone!