My boyfriend is gone and I am sad
My boyfriend got involuntarily hospitalized at the psych ward and I am so upset. He's been gone for 5 days.
He texted me on Sunday at 11pm saying that he was going to the psych ward. He said he was sorry, and he would explain everything to me once he could. I was half asleep so I honestly had no idea what was going on until I fully woke up in the morning.
I know his depression has been pretty bad, but I reassured him that he could always talk to me if he needed to. I have problems from my past just like him, but he's helped me so much throughout it and never shamed me, so the least I can do is be there for him when he needs to talk.
I thought he was having a good day too. He went to the beach with his family and collected rocks. Once he got home I told him he should go ahead and rest, and he did. Usually when he's gone for too long he's doing homework, so it didn't bother me.
Now he's gone and i have no way of contacting him. I feel so guilty that I wasn't there to help him...... I don't have many friends, my family doesn't like me, he is my best friend in the entire world, so I'm pretty much completely on my own right now, and I feel so lonely.
Breakfast today: instant cup noodles and green tea. I'm currently binge watching the madoka magica movies for the millionth time, this anime is our favorite to watch together. Our favorite characters are Kyoko (him) and Sayaka (me).