I’m a mess
I really thought I’m starting to get my sht together. I even got into a relationship, after almost a decade of being single.
I got a better job. So far, best job I ever had. Pero somehow I managed to fuck things up.
Right now, my S/O asked for space kasi pagod na raw siya. I called in sick at work, kasi I was spiraling. I thought about taking all the meds I can find. I just wanna OD. Ayaw ko na magising.
How come I manage to fuck things up, e okay na yung situation ko? I also trusted a wrong friend for an investment, now she owes me a lot. I’m in debt too.
Nawawalan na ako ng pag-asa. Parang sobrang bigat ng lahat. I really think I’m destined to be alone. I bring out the worst in people. Pinapagod ko sila.
Parang ang hirap kong mahalin, ang hirap bigyan ng chance, at alagaan. I’m so tired. I’m so stupid. Maybe some things don’t get better, no matter how hard you try.