r/MentalHealthPH

I don't know why but it's taking me so long to get out of this funk I've felt. I don't know why but even before I am in this state, I can handle the stressors of life and many disappointments. I acknowledge the hurt those things caused but I still kept on going doing things I thought I needed to do. I think upon further inspection, I realized that as much as I enjoyed the things I did after and before work, I never took much time to relax and just have fun. I think besides going outside, I just stopped trying to have fun indoors. Maybe I cracked because I stopped doing things for fun or stopped doing things that are fun and relaxing for me.

Does anyone have that problem? That you stopped doing fun and relaxing things? Have you been able to just live and enjoy things for fun and relief? If so, yeah, I'd love to know how you guys did it if there's anyone willing to share. I'm just lost on how to process things. I think I feel somewhat better. But I just can't seem to bounce back like what I usually do.

Hello, pwede po ba magpa PWD ID meron po akong Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD), makakatulong din kasi discount pag bumili ako gamot. Thank you po.

Hi, im 14, turning 15 this 24th of the month. I attempted to kill my self 4 times now, and might try again. I don't know what im doing. In those 5 attempts, I was to scared to continue. What's wrong with me? Im too young to be like this haha.

I am new to my job. I always have anxiety on my days off and can’t fully enjoy them because I am scared of messing up at work and getting fired. I feel like it’s bound to happen eventually because I’m me and I am prone to making stupid mistakes. It’s retail and I don’t have experience in that field as I have always worked desk jobs before, but there’s a lot of pressure to keep this one because of how hard it is to find a job in Canada especially as an immigrant. People will say “it’s not that serious” but I can’t help but feel worried and anxious all the time esp bc I know how hard it is to land another job.

Ayun lang po.

Be Honest: What’s Something Your Mom Doesn’t Know About You?

i'm a college student and i think it's really sinking in now i'm never gonna kill myself no matter how badly i want to. i'm gonna have to keep living for the rest of my life.

what do i do now though? it's finals week, and i'm missing a bunch of school assignments and admission requirements. my professors probably think i'm slacking off and to be fair, they're not fully wrong. so do i just have to get back on those now? i guess the obvious answer is yes, but i don't know. it pisses me off that unless i die i just have to keep carrying on like nothing happened. to be honest, i'm not a prudent student and i don't care about my grades or what happens to me. but as long as i'm enrolled i have a responsibility to fulfill to the people who put me in there.

i don't know about therapy, it took me three months to schedule one appointment with the school counselor and all they told me was that what i was feeling was perfectly normal and acceptable. to be honest i don't even know if it's worth getting help anymore. it won't change anything and no one will believe me.

this is a bit of a downer post, so sorry for that >_> i know i have to get on with things sooner or later, but when i think about it i get so upset i can't get started on anything. how do i fix this? i just want everything over with.

Hi everyone. I’m 36 and I was only diagnosed with adult ADHD 2 years ago. Ever since then, parang ang daming bagay sa buhay ko yung finally nag-make sense.

I already have two professional licenses, but honestly… until now, I still feel lost sa career path ko. I worked hard for those licenses, pero deep inside, parang hindi ko na talaga gusto ipagpatuloy. I’ve tried forcing myself for years, hoping things would eventually click, pero parang hindi talaga.

Now I just want to finally move forward and hopefully make one last career shift into something that genuinely fits me. Something sustainable. Something I actually want to wake up for.

Minsan feeling ko sobrang left behind na ako compared to people my age. Parang everyone else already figured life out while I’m still trying to understand myself at 36.

I’m hoping to find a psychologist, psychiatrist, ADHD-friendly career coach, or even a life coach here in Metro Manila / PH who specializes in adult ADHD and career direction.

If anyone has recommendations or even similar experiences, I’d really appreciate it. Thank you.

I genuinely can’t tell anymore if I’m just lazy/dramatic or if I actually need psychological help.

Since childhood, I’ve struggled badly with focus, time management, procrastination, forgetfulness, and motivation. I make schedules constantly but can never follow them. I’m always late even when I care a lot, can’t start tasks until pressure hits, zone out constantly, daydream almost nonstop, and forget things every day (assignments, chargers, what someone just said, why I entered a room, etc.).

I also have repetitive/ritualistic behaviors that feel impossible to ignore. I obsess over symmetry, even numbers, counting steps/patterns, and things feeling “equal.” If one side of my body feels uneven, I have to repeat movements on the other side until it feels right. I sometimes rewrite things repeatedly until they look correct. I get extremely uncomfortable/restless if I can’t do these things.

I have facial movements/tics too (nose flaring, eyebrow movements, eye rolling). Sometimes they happen unconsciously, but even when I notice them, suppressing them feels physically uncomfortable. I got bullied for this a lot in school.

I’m also sensitive to noise/loud places, get overwhelmed easily, struggle socially, sit in weird positions constantly, hyperfixate on interests, and escape into imaginary/daydream worlds for hours. I can also be impulsive, impatient, emotionally reactive, and get disturbing intrusive thoughts that I don’t actually want.

At this point I’m wondering if this sounds more like ADHD, OCD, autism, tics/Tourette’s, anxiety, or something else entirely. Does this sound serious enough to get professionally evaluated?

Medicine student here, throwaway account in case may makilala sakin. Just needed to vent or my head will explode.

I’ve been depressed for as long as I can remember. Most my jokes are self-deprecating and suicidal, to the point I’ve decided to end it all.

I have removals on June 1-7, around three — or at least, I’m expecting three. I already have one confirmed subject on June 1.

I’ve been planning to kill myself the moment I become an irregular student. No hate on irregular students, it’s just the amount of pressure I have on my shoulders have been suffocating me for six years.

Last year, I had two removals — I passed them, thankfully. But I prayed and told myself, “isang bagsak, wala na”.

I even planned it all.

Pack a bag. Leave a letter. Block everyone I know. Sneak out to NAIA. Fly somewhere far. Spend a few good days in some beach or a resort. Chug down crushed tablets in soju or whiskey. Inject myself with Midazolam. Die painlessly in my sleep, hopefully.

Funny how being a medicine student can also be my downfall.

At this point, if you are feeling pity — please, don’t. I appreciate it, but my head is clear on this. It’s unfair but I like to think that if I do fail, it means God said this isn’t my path. Maybe my path is to be with Him. Or to hell, since people keep saying committing suicide is a straight ticket to Satan himself.

My only wish is — albeit, selfish — to die painlessly, and to end up somewhere… decent. Doesn’t have to be heaven. Maybe purgatory. Or reincarnate as a bird.

title pretty much says it all

i love myself. i have no insecurities and i'm satisfied with who i am, inside and out. i'm pretty, smart, and funny, and only ever try to get better and better every day. i've been single for years now since i have a skill for saying no to what doesn't serve me. people have told me they admire me for my confidence and how i always show up to events looking good.

on paper, i'm sure i'm living someone else's dream life. except for the part where i'm absolutely broke and have no safety net.

i haven't been able to find a job for more than a year now. i've been applying to my industry and other tangential jobs, and i've even been applying to call centers, entry level jobs, and customer service roles. still, nothing. my previous role was supervisor level, but i still go ahead and apply for roles that pay less because i desperately need the money.

i don't want to reveal too much about my family life for privacy concerns, but i don't have anyone i can borrow or ask money from. it's really just me supporting myself.

to pass the time, i mostly stay at home and read books and watch movies. i hate it. i'm an extrovert who needs to see my friends, but it has simply gotten too costly. i still keep contact with my friends, but although we still talk online and schedule vidcall catchups, i feel disconnected from the rest of the world since i don't have the baseline amount of money to participate in it.

i'm now down to my last 1k. i have a few couple thousand pesos coming in two months from gigs i booked, but i can't take it anymore.

not here looking for people to talk me out of it, and i'm absolutely not here looking for donations. i just want a space where i can admit i feel this way.

Good afternoon! Ano po documents needed sa ncmh para sa free medicine? And okay lang ba pag sa PGH magpaconsult, and diagnosis galing PGH ang ipakita? Thank you.

Yeahhhhhhh I'm still super sadddd. I'm glad work feels bearable for the past few days and the hours after my shift have been okay too. Thanks for the comments I appreciate their input. Still sad but I just want the weekend to come. I just want to bedrot and think but yeah I still have work to do. I want to know what you guys do to make work bearable through the hours. What do you do after your shift to make the most out of unwinding before the next day comes.

Yeahhhhhhhh I need to prepare for work.

Oh yeah still feel free to share stories about overcoming inner conflict and bragging about the life you have.

Hi Guys. what's your take on someone your therapist na who evades paying taxes. He used to flaunt this information na hindi siya nagbabayad ng tax from his affiliated clients dahil kinocorrupt ng govt. Ang unfair lang because we pay our taxes and dues well, despite of it all.

Paano ba mag-deal sa mga ganyang narcissist na prof/therapist who feels so entitled about not paying taxes?

As a professional, is there a way to file a complaint anonymously?

Hindi ko akalain after 5 months of freelance working as massage therapist, nawalan na ako ng clients. as in wala, isa na lang natira and ewan ko kung babalik pa iyon kasi nabasa niya sa fb ko ung post ko about ny disability.

may nag report kasi ng isa kong fb talaga.

now nanlulumo ako. hindi ako makapuntang hospital. paano ako magpapa check up, kasi ni pera ni hindi ako mabigyan ng nanay ko kasi sasabihan niya lang ako na huminto na sa medications ko.

at minsan sinasabi niya din aabundahin niya ako sa rehab. ang lala ng situation ko dahil walang pakialam ang nanay ko sa nararamdaman ko. kapag may pera ako gusto niya ura urada bibigyan cya ng pera.

ang hirap ng situation ko.

ung tingin sa iyo sa bahay mo mismo kapat wala kang pera wala kang silbi.

ngayon wala na akong work. wala din akong silbi ngayon.. gusto ko ng mawala talaga.

I am so depressed sa mga nangyari. lahat ng clients ko biglang naglaho talaga.. ang hirap tanggapin. ang sakit sakit..

Ever since I have been g*aped nung 8yrs old ako by my cousin till 15 I'm really not okay mentally. Now I'm 19, on my dream school as freshman but cannot focus as nakakailang relapse na ako from the trauma. I also cry and act like a baby everytime that I'm in a rage alone in my room. Hitting myself, wishing na someday matuloy na yung plano ko.

I called kanina sa hotline and instead of understanding me they lectured me na dapat ganito ganyan nalang Ginawa ko. I have class today and idk I'll still attend it. Basta tangina, after this magpapskamatay na ako. Last 2023​​ diagnosed ako ng MDD (major depressive disorder).

I deserved no one, I'm meant to be alone.. And dirty.. And someone na Laging sinasabi nang Lutang.

I'm tired to even explain everything, I want to rest (forever), I always take into heart what my therapist, guidance counselor told me...but nothing would reciprocate the pain I've felt noong ilang beses Ginawa sa akin nung pinsan kong gun. Cut off na kami ng family ko pero nakatakas siya, plano mag overseas, and I'm here deeply suffering inside from his sexual, physical abuse and bullying.

It's also been affecting my relationships, my friends dahil rant ako ng rant sa kanila.

I'm sorry, I can't really do it anymore.

Sana makapagpahinga na ako forever. I think I've lived this life to the fullest na. :))

​​

Looking for skilled psychologists/psychiatrists who have a keen eye lang since I'm on a tight budget but need a diagnosis, pls dm or comment tyia!!

in case someone needs to hear this, yes! relationships are possible for us. we aren't hard to love. our mental health wouldn't and shouldn't hold us back from falling in love, having good relationships, and dreaming of families in the future.

to take myself as an example, i was a total wreck around a year or two ago (but ig in some parts, i still am). i am not proud of this (or i am ashamed), but i jumped from one sexual partner to another to deafen the "weird voices" in my head. it was pointed out to me na maybe i serial dated because i was depressed. ofc i was depressed. those were the worst years of my life.

yeah, sobrang fucked up ng history ko with people (but hello, never ako nagcheat). i was taken for granted, and minsan ako yung nagttake for granted. i was repeatedly told na i am hard to love, na i deserve to die.

pero despite it all, i found love. we've been dating for 6 months. we both talk about the future and super dami na naming dates kung saan-saan (may expensive restos, may kwekkwekan). i met her family, she'll meet mine soon (kapag may work na ako hehe js passed the boards).

there were ups and downs, lalo na at pareho kaming nagvivisit sa psychiatrists. but yeah, all in all, hindi talaga sagabal ang fucked up mental health sa pag-ibig. hindi dapat :-((((

kaya don't worry about it, stranger. you deserve to be loved!! you don't have to be "better" or "perfect" to be loved. basta ang alam ko, nag-exist lang ako biglang may nainlove na sa akin. the real ones wouldn't use your mental instability to not date youuu

Hello po! Ask ko lang po if may nakapag try na po dito ng Trimag from Mercury or Watsons? Trimag 200mg. Wanted to try lang this kasi baka makahelp sa health anxiety ko. Worried din ako to take other supplements kasi masama sa breast health? (Which is dun nanggagaling health anxiety ko)

Need your thoughts po pls 🥲

I just feel tired after working long hours. I exceed the shift too because I lose track of time working.

I feel numb after working too.

What do you guys do to alleviate the numbness?

ANd if you wanna share stories of overcoming the darkness and the bad in your lives and brag about how good your life is, please share too!

I'm having it right now, it can be anytime but mostly appear during nighttime. Is there anyone here who's willing to answer my call? you don't need to talk, it can be just pure silence. There are times when my chest feels so tight and like i can't breathe. Then I'm suddenly having thoughts of ending it right away so i don't feel the pain. I don't cry but im in pain. Help.