r/MentalHealthPH

Hindi ako sure kung tama ba ung ginawa ko, I was so depressed (not clinically diagnosed) planning to end my life is the only solution I can think for 2 weeks, I have no one to share with, I am the eldest, my mum died due to unknown reason, my dad was out of his spiritual state and got married (sa kanyang kabit) that he didn't even know he was.

Now, I carry all the burden and ending my life is the only solution I could think of para mawala na ung bigat na dinadala dala ko.

I went to the church, ask God for forgiveness, guidance, help, whatever I can think of, he is the only holy I can think of to talk to sa mga problema ko, hindi cya sumasagot pero nararamdaman ko ung presence nya. Mahirap e explain pero I always pray talaga to help me with my mental health.

2 year anniv ni mama kanina, dumating ung mga relatives namin, sinabi ko sa kanila problema ko tas bigla nalang ako umiyak kasi sabi ko, wla na akong maisip kundi magpak@m@t@y nalang, umiyak ung mga kapatid ko, nilapitan ako. Hindi ko alam pero nagpapasalamat ako sa Dios na binigyan nya ako nang lakas ng loob na pagaanin ung sarili ko kasi naka ready na lahat, ang pag eend nlng nung buhay ko ang kulang.

I felt relieve after telling them and cried for the very first time sa problema ko. Grabe ung bigat, pero ngayun, sobrang hiyang hiya ako na sinabi ko sa kanila, baka isipin nila ang kitid nung utak ko para mag end nang life.

I told them, hindi madali, hindi madali kasi naiisip din nung kapatid ko ung iniisip ko, ayaw ko na makita nila akong nagpakamatay at baka sundin nila ung ginawa ko. Bilang panganay, masakit para sakin na nasasaktan din ung mga kapatid ko. Naiintindihan ko sila kung ano man ang meron sila ngayun kasi ramdam ko at dinanas ko, hindi ko lang alam kung gaano at what level of their pain and suffering right now.

I did the right thing! Nilakasan ko ung loob ko, lumaban ako, at nagpapasalamat ako, at sana kayo rin!

I hope this would be my first and last na pagpapakam@t@y lang ang solution, kasi hindi, hindi talaga!

Jesus loves you, you just have to open your door and let him in to Save you! He will save you!

I’m a 2nd-year nursing student about to start clinical duty, and my anxiety gets very physical. My hands shake badly and my heart races, especially during procedures or when being observed. I’m worried it will affect my performance.
Would it be okay to buy propranolol without a prescription? I’m considering it because I mainly struggle with the physical symptoms, especially hand shaking and a racing heart, during clinical duty.

Hello! How and where can I get diagnosed? I’m 19 and I badly need help, I need to understand what’s going on with me. I’m looking for a place that offers affordable services. Also, do I need to have my parents accompany me? I’m hoping to find an option where I can go on my own.

Gagi ang random HAHAHAHA. Dumaan sa TikTok feed ko yung patient na kasama ko sa >!psych ward!< back 2024. Ang random lang kasi once lang kami nag meet tapos biglang nag pop-up sya sa TikTok feed ko kaninang 2am. Nag chikahan lang kami then nag mutuals sa TikTok at Insta after.

Wala share ko lang. Nawa ay maging maayos tayong lahat.🌻

PS: 4x na pala ako na admit sa >!psych ward,!< all because of >!OD!<. Na >!ICU!< pa si gaga HAHAHAHA.

I’m trying to get a diagnosis for some issues and symptoms I have had for a while. I’m not seeking to get medicated, but to explore talk therapy options instead. Since psychologists can diagnose, should I seek one out instead of a psychiatrist? My main concern is to get a neuropsychological assessment, or get screened for a suspected neurodevelopmental disorder. Thing is, I’m female and an adult. I’m worried I won’t be taken seriously. I’ve tried going to a psychiatrist at a public hospital before but my request for a screening was denied and that experience definitely left a bad impression because I didn’t try to get a 2nd opinion for years. This only my 2nd attempt at sorting out my mental health, and I don’t have an infinite amount of money to try out different practitioners.

Also, please recommend someone if you’ve been in the same boat.

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Hello anyone here diagnosed with BPD? Super rare kasi na makahanap ng community with same diagnosis. How are you guys coping? And are your meds effective ba? What's your routine? Dami ko lang tanong, message me or comment your worst experiences and pano nyo sya nalagpasan?

I’ve been battling with mental health issues for, I think, almost a decade. This year, I finally decided to go to a psychiatrist and I was diagnosed with panic disorder. Tapos sumabay kasi after kong manganak, nagkaroon din ako ng postpartum depression, so parang nadagdagan talaga yung bigat ng lahat.

For context lang din, yung husband ko ngayon, four months pa lang kami dating nung nabuntis ako. Since yung benefits kasi ng legitimate child, like sa PhilHealth and all, mas madali, and of age na rin naman kami, we decided na magpakasal na. That time I was 30 and he was 35.

Parang naisip namin, endgame naman na kami, so pakasal na kami.

Pero family ko kasi is Christian, so for me, may additional weight din sa puso ko na out-of-wedlock yung pregnancy ko. Kaya parang pinush ko rin talaga yung marriage.

Pero ngayon, with my current state, naiisip ko na baka hindi pala talaga dapat kami nagpakasal.

Kasi looking back, yung marriage namin parang hindi naman nagsimula sa ganung romantic na “I want to marry you because I love you so much.” More like mutual agreement siya na dahil sa situation ng baby, mas okay na magkaroon siya ng buong pamilya.

And now, nagkaroon kami ng sobrang petty na fight na nauwi sa something na hindi ko in-expect.

So eto yung nangyari.

Usapan namin Monday, tutulungan niya ako sa work ko para yung time ko sa work, magagamit ko para maasikaso yung business niya.

Pagkabangon namin, mag-11 AM na. Late na kami nagising kaya medyo delikado na ako sa work. Humingi na ako ng tulong sa ibang tao para maihabol yung mga tasks na binigay sa akin.
Finorward ko sa kanya yung kailangan niyang gawin, tapos bumaba ako para mag-asikaso ng pagkain.

Pagkaalmusal namin, wala pa rin siyang nagagawa.

Sinabihan ko na siya na same lang naman yung gagawin. Hanapin sa mga videos yung topics na binigay ko, then i-trim, then tulungan kami sa captions.

Nainis na ako kasi pag-akyat ko bago kumain, nag-Facebook lang siya. Eh sinabi ko na sa kanya na critical na yung deadline ko.

Pero sinabi ko sa sarili ko, “Bwelo nanaman yun, kakabangon lang,” kaya pinalampas ko na lang.

Kaya pagkakain namin, ako na diretsong gumawa kasi naiinis na ako sa tagal niyang magsimula.

Badtrip na ako. Tapos tinanong na naman niya kung ano yung gagawin.

Nainis na naman ako kasi paulit-ulit.

Hindi na ako umiimik kasi ayoko magsalita nang magsisimula na naman yung sagutan. Pero pinipilit niya akong sumagot.

Sabi ko, “Wag na kung di mo rin naman maiintindihan sasabihin ko.”

Pinilit niya pa rin ako hanggang sa sinabi ko na yung problema ko.

Sabi ko, ang tagal niyang gumawa, wala pa rin siyang nauumpisahan kahit ilang beses ko nang sinabi na critical na yung deadline.

Sabi niya hindi niya alam gagawin.

Sabi ko same na same lang nung ginawa niya last week. Same client, iba lang yung tao sa loob ng video.

Ilatag yung video, then ibigay kay ChatGPT yung transcript para mahanap yung topics.

Sabi niya wala siyang files.

Sabi ko same folder lang nung last week na naumpisahan na niya.

Doon siya nagalit at sinabi niya na dapat daw isa-isa kong tinuturo yung gagawin.

Kaya ako lalo naiinis kasi mahigit three months na niyang ginagawa yung ganung type ng work. Ilang beses ko na rin itinuro. Ilang beses na rin niyang nagawa.

Hindi ko maintindihan bakit kailangan every time from scratch ko ulit ituro.

Oo, beginner siya. I understand that people learn differently. Pero professional adult siya and ilang beses na niyang ginagawa yung same type of video. Yung ine-expect niyang pagtuturo ko sa kanya parang grade one na tinuturuan magsulat at magbasa.

Kaya ako nagsusungit. Mainit na ulo ko, critical yung deadline, tapos sobrang bagal pa ng progress.

Edi nagalit siya sa pagsusungit ko.

Tinawag niya akong “gago.”
Sinagot ko siya ng “gago ka rin.”
Nagalit siya lalo.
Sinabi niya “putang ina mo.”
Sinagot ko rin ng “putang ina mo rin.”
Hanggang sa nagsagutan na kami ng mura.
And then, sa sobrang galit niya, sinakal niya ako sa batok.

Doon ako natakot.

Ang response ko sa takot was, “Ah, nanakit ka na ha. Grabe.”
Tapos sinabi ko sa kanya, “Isusumbong kita sa lahat ng tao. Ipapaalam ko na nananakit ka.”
Doon lalo siyang nagalit.
Binato niya yung AirPods niya sa ulo ko. Tumama.
Immediately, tinawagan ko yung kapatid niya para isumbong kung ano yung nangyari.
Sa sobrang anxiety ko, chinat ko rin yung mommy and daddy niya and friend nya para may record na alam ng mga tao yung ginawa niya sa akin.

Parang gusto ko lang magkaroon ng witnesses na may mga taong nakakaalam kung ano yung nangyari.

Nag-hyperventilate ako.
Eventually, pinalipas ko na lang yung galit and nag-focus ako sa trabaho.
Sa sala ako buong maghapon.
Pagkatapos ko, lumabas ako, then pagbalik ko naligo ako.
Nasa baba siya, kakain yata.
Niready ko na yung unan and kumot ko kasi sa baba sa sofa ako matutulog. Ayoko munang matulog sa kwarto.
After maligo, aayusin ko sana yung mga squishy toys na nasira, so binuksan ko yung ilaw.

Pagalit niyang inutos kay yaya, yung yaya namin, na patayin yung ilaw.
Tumingin si yaya sa akin, so sabi ko, “Wag, may gagawin ako.”
Sumisigaw siya kay Mae na patayin yung ilaw, kaya naiipit yung tao.
Edi pinatay niya.
Binuksan ko ulit.
Sabi ko, “Kailangan ko ng ilaw, may gagawin ako.”
Sabi niya, “Doon ka sa taas.”
Sabi ko ayoko. Dito ako sa baba. Dito ako matutulog and ayoko sa kwarto kasi parang lungga niya yun and ayoko doon.
Pinatay niya ulit yung ilaw.
Binuksan ko ulit.
Then sinabi niya, “Babasagin ko tong ilaw.”
Sabi ko, “Sige, edi basagin mo.”
And he actually destroyed it.
Tumama/tumalbog yung ilaw sa TV.
Natakot si baby.
Nagulat siya and sumigaw siya, “Daddy, bakit mo sinira? Bakit mo binagsak? Bad ka, Daddy.”
Tapos iyak siya nang iyak.
Parang sobrang natakot talaga yung bata sa nangyari.
After that, binato niya sa akin yung wedding ring namin.
Sinabi niya na maghiwalay na raw kami.
“Lumayas ka. Dalhin mo yung bata. Wag na wag na kayong babalik.”

Umalis kami.

And now, ngayon ko pa lang talaga siya napoprocess.
Parang nagsi-sink in na sa akin yung nangyari.
And one of the biggest things that’s bothering me is our son.
Iniisip ko, paano kung lalaki siyang walang tatay?

Ang hirap isipin.

Kasi kahit ganito yung nangyari, hindi ko naman gusto na mawalan siya ng relationship sa father niya.
And I’m also questioning myself a lot.
Alam kong naging impatient ako.
Alam kong nagsungit ako.
Alam kong gumanti ako sa pagmumura.
Alam kong nag-escalate din ako verbally.
I can admit all of that.

Pero ang problema sa taong ito, feeling ko lahat ng actions niya kapag galit siya, somehow nagiging valid dahil galit siya.

Parang ang mindset is:
“Galit ako dahil ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit ako nagalit, therefore whatever I do while I’m angry is your fault.”

I'm tired. I wouldn't say that I am not blessed. I am. I have a very loving and supportive family. I have friends. But I'm tired of this continuous cycle of me doing good in my career only to end up starting over again at zero with a new one. And experiencing the same thing over and over again. Why would life make me experience things I've always dreamed of, only for it to be taken away in an instant? Tapos para kang niloloko, babangon ka ulit, work hard, tapos magiging successful ulit and then boom, wala nanaman.

Hindi naman ako tamad. I wouldn't even be successful in my own terms if hindi ko ginagapang lagi. Napaisip din ako if my work attitude changed when I hit those milestones pero hindi e. My first business lasted 10 years, natigil lang nung pandemic and wasn't able to bounce back. My next line of work which paid generously, nawala because of AI, now on my 3rd, going steady but there's this anxiety na baka maulit nanaman.

I've talked to a counselor and I've learned to acknowledge what's happening, and appreciate the fact that I am indeed able to navigate my way through everything life throws at me. Pat in the back, ganyan. Pero nakakapagod na rin talaga. 😢 I just really hope that whatever career I have now, sana last na to kasi I'm putting everything in line. Sana di na bawiin ulit. I don't know if I can handle another failure.

I recently made a friend na sanay mag-“sit still, look pretty” lang tapos from a very well-off family pa. So sanay talaga sya to be “served.”

Nung una, okay pa naman sakin. I enjoyed her company. But I later realized being with her a lot drains me.

Like everytime may sinu-suggest sya na place for us to try, I go and try it with her. Of course, interested din naman ako. And unless ayoko talaga ng type of food don, I’m always interested to try what my friends suggest.

Pero nung ako, mga 3 times ko na bini-bring up yung isang place na gusto ko puntahan namin. She acknowledges it naman, pero never naging “sige tara,” not even when wala syang maisip na kainan.

This became even more apparent a few days ago when she asked if gusto ko kumain after running. We often do that naman, pero the food options are limited lang where we usually go (doesn’t include yung previous place na 3x ko ni-suggest). Sabi ko I’m kinda craving yung chicken sa place A, but she wasn’t feeling it so we went to place B.

Next day, nagyaya ulit sya kumain. She asked what I’m in the mood for. I said chicken, pero sawa na ko sa place A. Saka I was kind craving our usual sa place B. Ayaw pa rin nya.

Isip daw kami ng ibang kainan. Medyo nainis na ko nito kasi yung nga lang yung malapit and ayoko lumayo kami kasi maulan. We ended up having food delivered and kumain na lang kami sa isang area.

Pero sya, everytime may craving, I go with her. Interested din naman ako and di naman ako pinilit, pero I realized di sya kasing thoughtful ko. She doesn’t pay attention as much to what I want, and kahit tanungin nya pa ano gusto ko overridden yun kung ayaw nya.

Walang curiosity about things that I like or interest to get to know those too.

One example lang to. Yung recent days lang talaga na-highlight yung lack of thoughtfulness.

I don’t wanna cut her off, but I wanna distance myself and just hang out kapag may energy ako.

Nakakapagod maging ma-effort talaga only to be taken for granted.

Ewan ko ba, lately mas nararamdaman ko na lang na gusto ko mag disappear ng parang nothing happen. Gusto ko ng katahimikan, kapayapaan, at kalayaan. I just want to disappear na para lang bula na bigla na lang naglaho tapos wala ng may pake.

Ever since I was young up until college , even when I try to be genuine with people, but for some reason I always feel so less than everyone. I hate the feeling, but up until now, I still experience being left out and not included in a lot of things. And lagi kong iniisip if the person talks behind my back, and if I just never really deserve any of these relationships. Ewan ko ba, but I often question my worth ever since bata pa ako.

Short context:

When I was kid, I'm very extroverted, almost everyone knows me sa batch. Lagi rin ako ung nag aapproach sa childhood friend ko. As time went on I feel like naiinis sila sakin. And I had a time (grade 4) na I was bullied kaya ever since non introverted na ko.

Trying to get back up from being introverted since highschool (gr 9), I did communication with some people here and there and ayon. I still had this trust issue na dahil nung bata ako, what if they don't like me from behind rin? Kaya I have a difficult time being attached (though I have attachment issues I think. If there's someone I enjoy talking to, excited ako makipag usap. but with most people, I leave a persona to them)

Up until now na college na ko (graduating) I still feel like this. I did talk with many people, had some friends rin. But I always had time for myself, and while I did interact with many circles. I did not become "too close" with any. Kaya heto ako na para bang mag isa muli. I'm tired of feeling like this., m

Hello.

My life has been feeling so repetitive lately, and I feel na parang wala nang saya in this life I'm living. That's why I want to ask for your side quest suggestions I could do para naman magkaroon ng konting thrill ang buhay ko lol

Walking 10km or just sitting in silence, kahit anong side quest man yan. I just need to feel alive again. Much better if it has less gastos, and even lesser social interaction, im not comfy with ppl kasi. Thank you so much! Wishing you all the best!

Im triggered again this time. Im breaking down and all i immediately do is to grab my cutter. But i need to change blade and make this opportunity to post here if ever someone is available right now to talk to? I iust want to hurt myself again right now I cant bear the emotional pain if tatagal na naman kaya i prefer to hurt myself simula palang para mag ease yung stress ko.Maybe a call?
Araw araw nalang masakit ulo ko at inom ng advil kase kahit pag gising masakit parin.

So it has been 28 days mula noong huli ako nag self harm (slashing) and I should know kasi nirerecord ko un dates mula noong last time, pero in that time frame gusto ko mag slash.

Pero at some point ang nangyayari is tatamarin ako na mag self harm, like it's midnight and tulog na halos lahat and meanwhile here I am nakaupo lang and nagiisip nag gawin un and halos barcode na rin un arm ko.

And then I did, and I can't help na tumawa nalang kasi apparently I'm so unmotivated na pati self harm tinatamad ako

I ended my 13 years relationship because of betrayal. Sa sobrang effort niya di ko napansin may iba pala. Sobrang sakit lalo na nung nalaman mo na may nangyari. Nandidiri ako nung una pero nung nahimasmasan na naman ako after one day gusto ko na naman makipagbalikan. Yes,opo super tanga ako pero guess what buti nalang umayaw din siya kasi kinakatwiran niya na natrauma daw siya sa pagsampal ko. Nagmakaawa ako pero ayaw niya. Ganun ko siya kamahal, pero sobrang sakit at natatangahan na ko. How to move forward? Sobrang lala pala ng process. Yung shock, questions ko andun, tapos paano mo iopen sa iba na nag failed lang un ng ganun kadali. Pati social media, pictures lahat, hirap burahin. Almost half of my life he was there. Sobrang sakit na napapawonder ako bakit ganun kabilis, bakit niya sinira lahat. I know madami magagalit sa nagawa ko pero I stopped begging na po. I know this time wala na talaga. Paano po ba uusad sa ganito? Paano po ba makakausad, eh process palang halos ikamatay ko na 🥹🥹.

Hi! First time ko magpa-psychiatrist recently, kay Dr. Nelson Mallillin. ₱900 yung consultation. Okay naman siya, pero feeling ko medyo rushed yung first consultation, possibly dahil late na ako sa schedule niya.

Sa first consultation, ni-prescribe niya sa akin ang escitalopram at amitriptyline. May follow-up ako ngayon, pero considering getting a second opinion from another psychiatrist na around ₱2,700 ang consultation.

Worth it kaya magpa-second opinion, or bigyan ko muna ng chance yung first psychiatrist sa follow-up? Any experiences or advice would be appreciated. Thanks!

Am I the asshole if I don’t “share” my PWD discount when I eat out with a group of people?

For example, sa final bill if same price yung bayad ng bawat isa, equally divided nalang kahit nabawasan na ng PWD discount yung bill. Or should I advocate na mas onti dapat saakin because of my PWD discount?

But sometimes I charge my friends for what they ordered and yung buong discounted amount I lessen sa amount ng inorder ko. But I feel like they feel weirded out when I do that.

Ano opinion niyo? And how do you deal with PWD discounts in a friend group setting

I Think si Dr. Trina lang na pwede mag prescribe kasi psychiatrist siya pero gusto ko mag check if may ADHD din ako at na recommend sakin si doc adrian.

hindi ko po alam if allowed tong post pero, may budget po ko under 1200 at meyroon good recommendations na man sila pero hindi ko alam sino mag appointment (first time ko sa Nowserving) nag diagnose na ko ng anxiety at depression pero psychologist siya so hindi nag prescribe ng meds sinabi po punta sa psychiatrist.

any other recommendations are welcome na man po.