I’m going to fail out of school and lose everything!! 🥰🥰 (tw: sui mentions)
>!i might fail out of my school and this school is like everything to me it’s the reason im still alive and it has my whole support system. if i lose this I literally lose everything. we have three days left of school and im just barely passing all my classes but i have three exams two of them are today and if i dont ace all of them ill fail out and like I know I need to focus. I’m trying so so hard but for the love of death I cannot make myself do the work!<
>!i was planning that if I failed out of school I’d off myself after summer camp, cause I love it there, and it ends right before school starts so I wouldn’t have to suffer through another school but I’ve been talking to people again and I’m realizing how many people need me to stay alive. I’m so glad I helped them but like that means I can’t end it all!<
>!and I just can’t fucking take this shit anymore. idk what to do if I do fail out. we’ll see I guess… but I love my friends and I know I can’t end my life bcs I’d be ending theirs too. so. who knows!<
oh yeah I’m also just over a month clean ^^
yay… sorta… I might throw that streak away we’ll see TvT