This religion is making my relationship with my parents worst
(sorry in advance for the grammatical errors)
You know this thing wherein you tell the elders you're going through something and they'll hit you with “Mag-pray ka lang” “Just pray” “Magtiwala ka lang sa Diyos”
That's what my mom always says to me whenever I open up to her about my personal issues and it's like there's this switch that makes me so mad, annoyed at her, like I want to resent her for saying those.
I'm already out to my parents btw that I don't believe in this religion anymore yet they still shove inc doctrines to my face and it makes me resent them bit by bit. I love my parents but whenever the conversation goes down that road, my blood starts boiling— why can't they just let me be??? It's so annoying!
There's this instance wherein I got so mad, I lashed out and told my mom I don't believe in god anymore cause she keeps insisting on her beliefs but then she cried and goes “Manalangin tayo”, I really don't want to pray cause it'll feel insincere that moment but she insisted, we were talking through a phone call that time, so while she was praying, I lowered the phone's speaker volume then after that hindi daw ako tumutugon ng “Opo” “Amen”, ayaw niya daw ako lumaki nang hindi naniniwala sa Diyos, yun lang daw maipapamana niya sakin.
Prayer had always been my mom's solace, she would always tell me stories about how god had always been her safe place and how she always surrendered things to him, she's been through a lot and I get her, I understand that's the way she copes but it just gets really annoying when she always say that's the solution to my anxieties over and over.
To add more to the resentment, my dad is a DDS, he literally said na hindi deserve ni Sara ma-impeach and he's literally on Bato's side. Meanwhile, my mom's apolitical cause politics stresses her. I've been trying to make them see yung mga mali sa paniniwala nila for YEARS, with facts even, but they always dismissed me, they want me to be that blind follower, “Sumunod ka na lang”, I had always been the stubborn one because I'm always trying to defy them and they go on telling me na nalason na daw utak ko, bakit daw ako ganito.
I know they keep on saying they love me as their child, yes, I am well provided however it feels like me and my parents are drifting apart day by day, it's like every conversation is a disagreement. Nananahimik na nga lang ako, feeling ko nga wala na akong kawala. May mga nagsasabi na pag financially independent na ako, umalis na ako sa bahay at sa inc but that'll break my parents' hearts
Lalo ko lang kamumuhian sarili ko.