My husband deserves so much better than me
I (28) am such a terrible person. I'm so ungrateful for all my husband (27) does for me. He works so I can be a stay at home mom. We have two kids, one of each, but I feel so incomplete. I wanted more but he had a vasectomy. It would've been irresponsible having more because we wouldn't have been able to afford another kid. My thought is he could've gotten a better paying job. A couple years later I had a hysterectomy because I was having problems.
My other issue is I absolutely hate my body and always have. When I'm at a healthy weight I see that what would be what makes me actually happy in my own body would be to have breast implants. I'm a size B cup, pretty sure not even a full cup, and have always been so insecure. Unfortunately I've let him tell me how he doesn't want that. He loves me exactly how I am but even he'll say it's shocking the few times I'll take my shirt off for him.
He's such a nice and sweet guy, but I'm so pissed about those two issues and I know I'll never get over it.
I truly believe him when he said he'd never remarry if something happened to me or I left him. He said I'm it. He would never move on that I'm the love of his life.
I hate this for him. He deserves SO MUCH BETTER but seriously he wouldn't move on. But how do I live with this?