u/BlkNoir-FH-ImBack

These last days I hate being brown, I want to be pale. I want to have the palest skin as possible. I don't like to see me in the mirror. I hate being a brown latino. I vent here because this community is more open about this feeling. Any other community will just tell me that learn to love myself the way I am, but I don't want it, I hate my appareance. My mom should choose a pale man as my dad instead of making me born in this disgusting flesh prision. I think my only opportunity of encarnation in this disgusting planet is wasted because I born brown. I can't enjoy life because I'm brown. Dating scene is sh#t to brown guys, specially with latinas, asian and black girls. W#m#n really hate brown guys, specially asian ones and I l really like them, but they h#te me just because a body I didn't choose. I hate it, please tell me that I have an opportunity to change my appareance before 30s and at least enjoy one decade of my life, currently I'm 27.

Es correcto querer ir al psicólogo únicamente para desahogarme, contar mis problemas y mis ideas? Para soltar todo lo que no puedo expresar en un público, pero sin el deseo de cambiar realmente? Estoy consciente que lo que pienso puede no ser correcto del todo, sin embargo siento que me dota de una personalidad y un propósito mayor, una motivación a un cambio que puede ser trascendental para mí y la sociedad. Solo quiero "quitarme pesos de encima", pero quiero que mi personalidad se mantenga tal cual a como es ahora, de lo contrario me sentiría como "lobotomizado".