u/Blocked_Nerve

i have been in this cycle for so many years now..

i constantly inspect myself on the context of the surroundings.. and see that everybody is happy..

then blame my past self for not doing enough things.. even blame my younger childhood-self to not be social.. then hatee myself even more for being me.. despite the fact that i even know i should not think like that and it doesn't work the way i think.

its just what it is.. still i hate myself for simply even existing..😅😅