r/SelfHate

Hi (f16)

So like I will be adult in 2 years ..a grown woman and because of online amd social

I hate being a born a girl

I love and hate my periods (periods only last 3 days and only have a pain just for few hours it's it's flow and out)

I hate women being associated with kids ..(kids are thr most disgusting ugly bald fuck I see in my life)

I hate pregnancy (you can die you can do blind and even by this ..you respect will be limited and the father will of course get more respect and all the attention to baby not to you)

I donot want to get less paid

I donot want get sexist commet from people

I hate how inidans stare at me

I hate marriage (if I marry a woman then that fine)

I hate how media sexualized women and girls

I hate people ignoring female soilder , doctor, engineers

I hate that I have ance

I hate that most swear words target woman and mother and sisters

I hate that peolel hate female pornstar but never the male ones

I hate how people think if a woman is not marry after thr age of 30 she is expire

I hate how the govemnt is not funding to study the female body..because I damm sure if they did ..we would have a device to lower the period pain

I hate how lesbain are sexualized and not ther own inviduals

I hate that people think women cannot be strong or even stronger then men..when there are female warrior and leaders and there are sa surviver who fought back and lived another day

I hate how the world favor men . When men lion so ugly and their dick also look ugly ..like eww

And I also hate that I myslef hating on being a woman because at exactly what patriarchy wants and I FUCKINJH HATE IT

If you have any tips or hack on how to stop hating myself for being born a woman please tell me

Because woman are amazing..and because of hiding ehat women did thought the years and how their bodies help save and being born ...we think being a woman is a curse or a burden .

Hate being born in a patriarchy socity not on being a woman

Thank you for reading

Have a nice day ❤️

when you made 1 mistake, you kept making more mistakes. in the end you fuck up completely. there is no way back.

if i don't manage to kms, i hope i beg i wish i pray for god for an accident or whatever that is to take my life away. please. i want my life to stop by now. please. please. please. kill me. let me die. please.

i'm sorry my friends i can't make it to our plans. and ever won't. i love you with all my heart. i'm sorry my internet friends that i won't be there texting you anymore, having you was the best blessing of my life, id never imagine id make friends with people from this many countries.

sorry my bestie, i promised you to see you again in thailand, sorry i have to break the promise. i love you. you deserve a better friend.

sorry me, my little self, i failed you. sorry my teenage self, i lied to you, life didn't get better, should've let you end it few years ago.

i'm sorry.

I’ve (34F) been diagnosed with autism at 3 years old and it has affected the way I act, think, feel and spend my money especially on items I feel like they’re necessary like self care and such.

Everyone from my family and my program would try to help me however it feels like they’re threatening me with a conservatorship which I should have been put on because I’m not good with money though I check my bank account time and time again.

I feel sorry for Britney Spears because she didn’t need one in the first place even when her mental health was in the trenches after giving birth to 2 sons only to be used against her by her greedy ex husband and family especially her alcoholic dad.

Good thing is I’m getting a SNAP card for food so I can manage money better.

Do you guys ever feel that you fucked up everything nice that ever happened to you? My mental health was really bad during the 11th to 12th. I made some stupid, stupid decisions, and I was a pain in the ass at school (because they were very worried about me, but my stubborn ass would not listen). I ended fucking things beyond the point of coming back. I lost 2 really good friends, and people started back bitching. Towards the end of school, I was really alone, I mean, truly alone. Now I look at pictures of teachers interacting with students. But when I go there is an indifference. I feel like I lost everything, but my going through depression does not feel like a good justification anymore.

I can't change what happened (I wish I could), but I'm scared that I might end up doing the same things and will fuck up more. It feels so lonely to come back home from uni knowing I have no friends and will remain in my house forever, while all of my other uni friends catch and post about their hangouts. I feel so fucked up, and I just want to startt againn.

My life is worthless shit and every second I'm awake is fucking misery. I'm 43 years old, I'm fat, I'm hideous, I'm broke, I work a humiliating low-paying food service job, I'm not good at anything, and nobody likes me. Every day is absolute fucking trash and there's no hope that any of it is going to get any better. I don't even know why I keep going.

You don’t have to love yourself you can hate yourself if you want. All of the people who say “Oh you gotta love yourself.” Need to shut the f up. Really you don’t need to love yourself you just have to be successful in life. But I think it’s better to keep your self hate or dislike to yourself, don’t go around telling others you have hate to yourself or dislike to yourself.

i genuinely hate myself so much like it's not even a joke anymore. i'm such a fat fucking chud with nothing better to do in life but rot in bed and stay isolated, and the worst part is that i want to change for the better. i've been with my boyfriend for 2 years now (yayy) and he's always been reassuring me that i'm pretty but i can't find myself to believe it or even try to accept it. i've struggled with body image since i was a kid and no matter how much i try to change, i'm always so ugly. i feel bad for my boyfriend because i truly don't want to bring myself down but i just can't find anything in me to be happy about and i sound like a total cuck coming online and disclosing my problems but i really have no one else to vent to and i don't want to burden my boyfriend even more with complaints about my looks or myself in general

i truly do hate myself

Recently I’ve been reading the Bible more, and I came across verses about same-sex relationships, sexual immorality, and “unnatural” desires. Now I feel crushed.

I grew up trying to pray this away. I didn’t choose it. I didn’t wake up one day and decide to like women. I’ve tried to ignore it, suppress it, and hate it out of myself, but all that did was make me miserable.

The hard part is that I don’t love women in a lustful or objectifying way. I love women as whole people. I want tenderness, emotional closeness, safety, and real love. I want to love God too. I don’t want to choose between God and being able to love.

Right now I’m scared that if I ever choose to be with a woman, God will hate me or punish me. I don’t want to live in rebellion against God, but I also don’t want to go back to hating myself. I’ve seen that version of me, and I can’t go back there.

Idk what I’ll do

It all started in september when I was separated from my two closest friends because of drug problems (they where both going through the same problem, but my friend snitched on me when he was greening out and panicking) I didn't want this to happen, obviously, but before this incident I thought life was great and I was just gonna hang out with them everyday and be fine. But instead this happened, and I was going through depression and harshly isolating myself, because I felt like I had no other choice. During this time I was also moderately using Marijuana (Daily but not all the time, maybe every few hours) I would just sit inside and play video games all day after school, but It was extremely hard for me because of all the negative thoughts at the time. Fast forward to now, I hang out with two different groups that I call group A and group B, group A are my og friends that I talked about in the start, I feel like they are a little more popular and well connected with people, but group B feels more real but less popular (I try not to care about that) But with both of them I pray to god I have even the most slightly entertaining summer. Anyway, constantly in my head I'm always thinking i'm so ugly all the time, to the point where I don't feel like a normal person anymore. I feel like everyone else just looks so normal and average but I look like a alien compared to them. My biggest insecurities are my butt, which is way to big for a guy, my jaw which is basically not present, so I do this thing where I'm always pushing my jaw forward when Im around people, my feet are super small (doesn't matter that much) Im like 5'4 so i'm super short for a guy, I'm kinda skinny fat but my nipples kind of poke through my t shirts and it makes me super insecure so just like today, when it's 90 degrees outside, I got a hoodie on. Sometimes I think about suicide or giving up and running away, but I strongly feel that there is too much in the world that I havent seen yet. My biggest dream is just to be normal, I would love to live some random normal kids high school life, not even the most popular kid, just your average fucking guy. Life is so unfair and I lost the life lottery because of my parents shitty genes. I feel like me being ugly prevents me from wearing the clothes I want to wear, acting how I want to act and doing what I want to do. As an ugly guy, acting confident will just make you seem like a joke. Just like everybody in my school already sees me, I don't know if it's because I'm a stoner, because I'm weird and actually have a fucking personality, or because I'm actually ugly. I forgot to make it clear I have no interest in love especially right now in my teenage years, I just hope that as I mature and grow I glow up at least a little bit, or I'm cooked. Anyways, I just needed to get this shit off my chest and I will probably come back and add more later because I easily gain new insecurities and shit. Please let me know if you think I'm weak or if I just need to keep going. Please let me know if you have any advice for me to just try accepting the fact i'm ugly and move on with my life.

I hate being turkish and I can't even change it.People are so rude to me because I'm Turkish.
What's wrong with me? I don't like to live like this...
what should I do?

I know I might regret this post, I’ve been wandering downtown of my city hoping to be placed in a dangerous situation for months. I don’t want to live anymore as most of my support has left me rightfully so to take care of themselves. I gave my all to protect one and lost both remaining. I just don’t want to waste another day knowing people will decide who you are from your mistakes. They aren’t wrong because decisions show a persons true self but it seems I was meant to be alone.

i have to be distracted by something 100% of the time and the moment im in my bed and not distracted by something I just start spiraling and crying. I am exhausted I havent felt alive in like 2 years

I’m so done with everything, this life is too painful to live in. I don’t wanna live to be in my 30s. I don’t belong here in this life, because I have nothing to offer to this world. Absolutely nothing. I’ve been a failure and a loser my whole life. I’m an introverted weirdo and I hate being that way. I don’t matter and never have. I’m done going through any more of this pain. I wish I could find a way to end it all, but I don’t know how to do it. All the ways I can think of are way too painful.

I have nothing to look forward to in life, absolutely nothing. I consume media a lot to distract myself, but I’m starting to become bored by it. I wanna live life for real, but my life sucks too much.

All my life I’ve used things to distract myself, not only that, but my mother was still alive. Ever since my mom has been gone, I’ve never felt more lonely in my entire life. I hate living life without her. She is the one and only woman who will ever love me unconditionally. Most other women want nothing to do with me. My grandmother has dementia, so it definitely isn’t the same.

I just want this painful existence to end. It will never get better and I will never be happy the way I used to be happy. I don’t wanna live to be an old man. I would much rather die young. I can’t take decades more of this.

Sometimes I wish I could die because life wasn’t ment for me

I feel like I will never be normal or live a happy life with healthy relationships. Ill only ever be an afterthought or burden to my loved ones since they have partners and kids and since I dont I spend too much time alone with my thoughts. I wish euthanasia was legal for mental illness like it is in the Netherlands. The crisis worker flat out said she was hanging up since I wasn't wanting to try coping skills because you cant coping skills your way out of isolation. At this point im 36 never been romantic with anyone and its too late to start.

What should I do? Help me out

It’s so embarrassing to admit, but I really really hate myself. I feel so ugly and insecure everywhere I go. I go to work, and I’m the only one there with disgusting acne and terrible skin. I go to school, and every girl I see it so beautiful without even having to try or wear any makeup. Im embarrassed that I wear makeup because it makes it obvious that I put effort in my appearance to no avail. My nose is too big, my jaw and my face shape are unfortunate, my eyes are crooked, I have horrible smile lines. I look like such a man without my fake eyelashes on. I cry so often about my appearance, I want to be pretty so badly. I know most people are insecure about how they look, but I don’t even want to leave my house. I feel it deep in my bones whenever someone looks at me, I just want to be a shut it so no one has to see my awful face. I wish I could get plastic surgery more than anything, I fantasize about it every single day.

Can someone talk to me or comment because there’s a lot of views and no help I posted a normal vent on Reddit about feeling like I’m wasting my life and struggling with guilt. A guy messaged me saying I reminded him of someone from his past. At first he said he was talking to me for me, but later admitted he kept chatting because I reminded him of her and started calling me by her name The conversation started fine but slowly became uncomfortable He mentioned his previous relationship had mature themes I got curious and asked him to share more Things escalated when I asked what he wanted me to call him he told me to call him a nickname starts with d He told me that that relationship was a ddl type of relationship At one point he asked me that he wants to know how my body look like I knew the age difference was significant and that this was inappropriate it was a 12 years age gap but I continued replying anyway I was drawn to the attention even though this is completely unlike me I didn’t want it to go in that direction but I had a lot of curiosity I told him I had almost no experience and was just feeling empty and desperate for attention Still he continued but he didn’t force me into anything Eventually I ended the conversation and deleted my account Now I’m filled with overwhelming guilt and self hatred I feel like I betrayed the good person I’ve always tried to be and let down my religious values I can’t stop crying and feeling deeply ashamed and dirty and also i feel like i was enjoying talking to a man that much older than me and enjoying the situation before the guilt
This was the first time I’ve ever done anything like this I just needed to vent Has anyone gone through something similar and managed to forgive themselves?