I’m a 20 y/o woman and I have no interest in my life whatsoever. There’s absolutely nothing I care to see through. I don’t care about what I’m studying, and I have no passions or talents. I have no love life and very few friends. I’ll never have much of a career, or a family of my own. I’m not super sad all the time, but there’s just nowhere my life could realistically go that excites me at all.
Almost 20f and never held hands, never had a talking stage, never been on a date etc. I genuinely am so anxious and depressed over this I can’t even focus on anything. I feel like my life hasn’t started yet, and as the years go by I’m terrified it never will. I don’t feel like a human being yet I can’t relate to this experience that’s so defining of other people’s lives. Every song, movie, conversation seems to be about love and it’s driving me insane that I can’t connect with anything. I am constantly left wondering what’s wrong with me. I obsessively over analyse my appearance, constantly trying to make changes, but it’s never enough. I dwell on my personality and how I come across. Im desperately searching for a reason as to why it’s ended up this way but I can’t find it. The worst part is nobody ever even asks me if i have anyone or any updates. Ever. My mother, who was so invested in the dating life of my sister, has not asked me anything ab mine even once. People look at me and just know it cld never happen for me. Im depressed even at the sound of other people talking about motherhood, because I know that realistically I’m never going to be able to have a family in the way that I dreamed of, and thought was available to me as a child. I’ll never understand how this comes so easily to just about everyone else but me. Everyone I know talks about how they got to university and their worlds opened up, even if they were a bit nerdy and inexperienced in HS. I’ve had two years of university now and nothing. I honestly don’t see how it’s possible. Ofc I know 20 isn’t old but the fact is, in my life, Im literally the only one left of anyone I know to be in this position and I hate it I hate it sm why does it have to be me
Im sure others have noticed this, but I do think that social media, including subreddits like hair advice, tend to be distorted by resentment for young pretty women.. Whenever I see a conventionally stunning blonde, either on here or on tiktok, the comments are almost always telling her to change up her colour immediately, saying that she looks basic or washed out. Another big one is girls recommending bangs to pretty girls who look absolutely fine without them? And I’m noticing this as someone who has been brunette her whole life. But, when less attractive blonde women post, the comments are flooded with compliments and much less pressure to change up their look😭😭
Anyways I think my main point is that a lot of people are evil eyeing the girls who are more stereotypically pretty and withholding any compliments on their natural state, telling them instead to change into the exact opposite way, even sometimes when they haven’t asked for any tips. I fear compliments are the new insults 😭
Tl;dr (19f) am turning 20 in a month, and I should be excited for my birthday but instead I’m dreading it. I just honestly can’t believe I’m going to be twenty years old without having ever even had a date, held hands, or even a talking stage…
I know 20 isn’t the end of the world, and I know that many people get into this stuff later in life. However, I’m incredibly depressed and bored with how much my life lacks this stuff. I also feel like as a uni student, I’m around the most people my age that I ever will be, and go out more than I ever will. So if my life is devoid of any romance now, I can’t see how it would realistically get better later on. It’s also so frustrating and hurtful to be around all my female friends while they catch up on all the developments in their love life. If they go a month without any romantic updates of some form that wld be shocking and difficult for them .. I just don’t understand how something thats come so easily for so many years for others feels completely unattainable for me! It makes me feel like less of a girl.
It’s too hard to actually just give up on this stuff and accept a life without it, even though I’ve tried. So I really don’t know what’s wrong with me or what to do
I (19f) am tuning 20 in a month, and I should be excited for my birthday but instead I’m dreading it. I just honestly can’t believe I’m going to be twenty years old without having ever even had a date, held hands, or even a talking stage…
I know 20 isn’t the end of the world, and I know that many people get into this stuff later in life. However, I’m incredibly depressed and bored with how much my life lacks this stuff. I also feel like as a uni student, I’m around the most people my age that I ever will be, and go out more than I ever will. So if my life is devoid of any romance now, I can’t see how it would realistically get better later on. It’s also so frustrating and hurtful to be around all my female friends while they catch up on all the developments in their love life. If they go a month without any romantic updates of some form that wld be shocking and difficult for them .. I just don’t understand how something thats come so easily for so many years for others feels completely unattainable for me! It makes me feel like less of a girl.
It’s too hard to actually just give up on this stuff and accept a life without it, even though I’ve tried. So I really don’t know what’s wrong with me or what to do