r/doomer

What's even the fucking point

I think theres really no point to my life anymore. My brain is dying. I can feel it dying and its filled with hate and shame and nothing else. I cant do it anymore

How am I tired of living only at 18? People say, you have so much to be happy about. Like yeah, I know.. why cant it feel like it? Im so tired. Everyday has me feeling the same. The dread of my head hitting the pillow to wake up to another pointless day.. it consumes me. To feel excited is rare. It takes too much to excite me. Why? Every day I wish I was born into a different body. Jfc, put me through the hell of my childhood again if it means that I can grow up into a normal human being. Why is everything dread? Where is excitement, ambition, will? Endless repetition, endless come and leaving. I love you Radiohead. Lol.