u/CG-ZenDex

I've been ugly my entire life, and by no means I claim that I look attractive now, I'm not a narcissist but I've improved on how I look and I noticed a huge change in people's behaviour towards me. Back then people used to be extremely racist, mocking me for my skin tone and how ugly I used to look, but now I rarely even get racist comments or stereotypes, almost like no one even bothered in the first place. People didn't start treating me better since my glowup but they haven't been treating me like absolute shit like I dealt in my childhood, it felt good that at least now I get treated like everyone else, a regular guy. But now that I think about it, even racism is rooted based on how ugly or beautiful a person looks, I hate this world. (sorry for the long rant)

i know this is a sensitive topic and hence I wouldn't call it "disorder" until I'm absolutely certain, but as the title says, I feel like I change my personality around almost every person, it's like I'm a completely different person to one person, and then different person to other, and I ended up thinking which personality of mine is the real me, or is there any version of me which is real to myself? I also get severe de-realization throughout the day, getting the feeling that nothing is real, should I check out with a therapist or its just me overthinking?