u/They-Them_Moonwalker

Something like "hey fren, u seem sad, but I is here now to snuggle u. No more sad."

I feel like I don't contribute anything worthwhile to this fandom or to society. I don't feel like I deserve to be in this fandom because I'm a worthless failure and don't deserve to be happy. Should I just do everyone a favor and quit?

I can't deal with the bullying anymore. I can't deal with not one single person ever being on my side. I hate myself so much already and I want to relapse. Should I just quit because I contribute nothing to this app or society?

I've heard through the grapevine that Jaafar would like to pursue horror roles. That being said, I've recently been down a true crime movie rabbit hole, and I realized there are a lot of movies based on serial killers, like Psycho and Texas Chainsaw Massacre, but there are a lot of iconic killers without any titles to their names. Then I thought of one I was really fascinated (and infuriated) by: the Rainbow Maniac, an unidentified killer who targeted gay men and killed 13 of them in Paturis Park in Carapicuía, Brazil, from July 2007 to August 2008.

Then was born the title of the screenplay, Spectrum, and the two main characters, Jesse (played by me, since they're my self-insert) and Luis (played by Jaafar.)

It follows 16-year-old Jesse Summers who moves from the United States to Sao Paulo with their family in 2007. They're nonbinary but haven't told their parents yet because they know they'll freak out and disown them. They don't fit in anywhere due to their nonconformist ways, and they're desperately searching for any sort of sense of belonging. And they find it in their neighbors, 27-year-old Luis and 29-year-old Gabriel. They form a close friendship, and during a long night sitting on their porches, Jesse confesses to Luis that they're nonbinary. They expect him to freak out since he's the first person they ever told, but he doesn't. He confides that he's gay, and him and Gabriel are actually dating, not roommates like Jesse had assumed. But unbeknownst to them, someone is listening.

And the next day, Gabriel is found in Paturis Park, beaten to death.

What do we think? In case anyone's somehow in contact with any film execs who are interested in this idea, hit me up.