u/Aggressive-Bed-1816

I think you broke me. I don't believe I'll ever be good enough for anyone now. I don't think I can find it in myself anymore to try again. Or start over. I'm sorry bro. Like really sorry. I love you .

The calmness I found in your presence is unmatched. The quietness in my mind that you brought in your energy. The security you always gave me. The unbelievable amount of love I've fallen for you..... The safety, inspiration, and complete acceptance for not only myself but another human being. All the things. Everything. When life got very cold and dark, you were there. You gave me a new breath of life, kept my head above water. And kept reminding me that life is still beautiful. I wanted to give you my very soul. I've called it zombie love. The way you brought me back from the dead. So why am I looking at you like a stranger. Why am I confused and lost. Where did it go? What happened? My heart doesn't want to accept its lies. My mind doesn't want to wonder, to assume. I'm not going to come back from this, once the light is gone again and my spirit fades. That will be it. There's no coming back again. I don't know why or who has made you turn your back on me like I've never meant anything to you. I suppose maybe it's just me. I'm at fault. If I were good enough and not too much at times, then perhaps maybe we could still be the same. Youve hurt me a lot. More than anyone else. The things you did and the things you still continue to do. Why is it like this? Why let me fall, let me dream of you, if you never felt the same. If you never had any intention of keeping the facade going......that mask I must say was a very, very beautiful one. Very, very well made and artistic. You're a pro, i can tell. Cause even after all the hell life taught me. You still managed to fool me. And teach me way more. You also managed to break me for good this time. I will always love you. I may never believe in you again though. My opinion certainly will never be the same or as good again. I've learned my lesson. Cold, hard, evil lesson. Oddly I find myself hoping I fade with it all, cause it's just too hard to imagine life without you in it. Too hard to imagine anything will ever be good anymore. Hard to imagine home again. Every reason I had in life, has been torn away and is gone. I wanna relive that sunset over and over and over again until my last breath, and the lights are gone. That's what I want. For the rest of my life it's that sunset. I will never allow myself to get close to anyone ever again.

You're a joke. I can't believe I allowed you to play me yet again. I can't believe I put any benefit of the doubt in you to try again!!! Get the f--k outta here with that noise! You ain't shyyyyt!

I'm removing anything that reminds me of you. I'm erasing your memory. You are no longer anything to me and I wish I had never met you. Cause this shit hurts.

Getting rid of the pictures and stuff be the hardest. I'll get it done eventually

It be that zombie love that fucks you up the most. That love that brings you back to life. Yeah, I get it. I enjoyed every bit of time spent with you and wish there was so much more. But fuck does it hurt now.

I love you like the morning dew. I love you like the evening stars. I love you I. Ways there are no words for. Like only poetry from the very beginning days can explain. I love you purely. I love you wholely. I love all of you. I guess that's my issue. I love you. More than you love me. Enough to destroy me. Enough to love every ounce of the pain.

I'm going to my never land the only place that's safe. See you when I see you.

It ain't nothing but one lies after another with you. You couldn't tell the truth if your life depended on it. I'll be glad when your erased from my memory. The entirety of the time I've known you has been a nightmare.

I knew what I was doing when I wanted to see you. I knew I'd get attached again and I know the probability of this working out where I'm not going to get hurt. But imma put my big pants on and endure because I enjoy you. A lot. Like a lot, a lot. I dunno how you really feel about me, or what's your thought process on it all. The time spent differs but really it's never bad...... I'm just hopeless I know. But people can dream right? And right now you're just the day dream I need to keep me pushing through.