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I’m sorry for breaking up with you. I’m sorry that I did it so suddenly, without giving you the explanation, honesty, or respect you deserved. I’m sorry I broke up with you. Twice.

I’ve had so much time to sit with what I did, and what I regret most isn’t simply that I left. It’s that I became someone who hurt you. Someone who was loved by you so deeply, and somehow became the person who caused you pain despite loving you so much too.

That is something I don’t think I’ll ever stop carrying with me.

You loved me so selflessly. You put your ego aside and tried to reach me, tried to understand me, and tried to get me to talk to you. And instead of meeting you with that same vulnerability, I shut down inside myself. I couldn’t face what I was feeling, I couldn’t explain it, and I made a decision that affected both of us without giving you the honesty you deserved.

I was avoidant. I ran from something I didn’t know how to face, and in doing so, I hurt the person I loved.

You didn’t deserve that.

You didn’t deserve to be blindsided by someone you loved.

You didn’t deserve to be left wondering why, or wondering what you had done wrong.

You didn’t deserve to have someone you loved so much suddenly decide to leave without giving you the chance to understand what was happening.

And the hardest thing for me to accept is that I know how much you loved me.

I know you would have listened. I know you would have tried to understand. You had already put your pride aside and reached for me. You were willing to have the conversation I was too afraid to have.

And I still left.

I hurt you even though I loved you.

That is the part I regret the most.

Because I never want to make what we had sound like I left because I didn’t love you. I did. I loved you then. I love you now. My inability to handle my own emotions did not mean my love for you wasn’t real. But loving you didn’t stop me from hurting you, and I understand now that love by itself isn’t enough. You have to know how to communicate it. You have to know how to stay. You have to know how to be honest when things become difficult.

I didn’t know how to do those things then.

And you were the one who paid for that.

I’m so sorry.

I know saying this now cannot undo what I did. I can’t give you back the trust I broke or take away the hurt I caused you. I can’t change the fact that I was the person who made you feel that kind of pain.

I don’t expect you to forgive me. I don’t expect you to come back. I don’t expect my realization now to mean anything to you.

I just wish I had understood it sooner.

It’s been two years since I left, and somehow I’m still here, carrying the love I had for you then and the love I still have for you now. I have no right to ask anything from you. I have no right to expect you to still love me after what I did.

But I miss you.

And I love you.

And I think I always will.

I wish I could go back and be brave enough to tell you what was actually happening inside of me instead of making the choice I made. I wish I had trusted you enough to let you see the parts of me that were scared and confused instead of making you pay for them.

You loved me so much, and I am the person who hurt you.
I think that will always be one of the things I regret most in my life.

Not simply that I lost you, but that I hurt someone who loved me so deeply when I loved him just as deeply.
I’m truly, deeply sorry.

You deserved honesty. You deserved communication. You deserved to be treated with tenderness by the person you loved.

And I’m sorry that person was me, and I didn’t know how to give that to you then.

-E

I have been in love with you for almost two years and I’m not sure how the hell it happened. We never were anything ever other than well you know what we did, we had fun the best kind of fun. I always knew the routine I knew I meant nothing even though I wanted to mean something to you.

So many times you came and went, so how and why did I fall in love with you. You’re really kind of an asshole and have a big ass ego and you are not a humble person at all, even though you say you are. You’re not even all that no offense, you have issues just like everyone else. You care more about what people think than anyone I have ever met. Eww a h time we came around each other I told myself I could handle it, well silly fucking me that was a lie.

Every time you vanished it stung and it really stung when you showed up with someone else because what was wrong with me, you could have fun with me and take my help. But that was it and that’s all I was. So each time you vanished I had to get over you,and I would with time and guess what would happen you would eventually show back up somehow. And I would lie to myself again.

You never promised me anything, so it’s not your fault. But this last go around was damn sure the biggest hurt, which I say now is my fault. I knew how I felt but this time was way different you gave me more glimpses that I had never seen before, but it was probably just the HIGH of things at-least for you. I don’t want to love you, I don’t want to be your friend either!! Just stay away it’s what’s best, you got everything you wanted and that’s probably why I saw a newer version of you. I was blinded with my own stupidity. The sad thing is I can’t wrap my head around why you of all people that I’m drawn to why? Why do I love you!! THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?

I’m a gorgeous fucking person who has a heart that’s the purest of pure. I have realized that I wasn’t meant for anyone to love or want me, I’m just here to give it and learn a lesson. And damn have I learned some lessons. As I said I knew better and thought I could bet against myself and I lost. You are wrong in some ways, I hope one day you can see that. (But you won’t, because you don’t like to be wrong)however I will always cherish the fun we had together and the last couple months I most definitely will tuck away in a special place because for a moment a brief moment I got to feel something more from you than I ever had.

So no I don’t want to be your friend because I can’t, I can’t be just cool. I will never tell you ever. Just don’t fuck me over when it comes to the last thing that’s left between us. I wish you the best but I must protect myself and I need my heart to release you. Be safe, please take care of yourself.

Goodbye

P.S. Your eyes are your best feature about you.

I’m honestly scared of how you’ll react. But I’m still hoping we get the chance to talk because there’s something I’ve been carrying for a while. I just want to be honest with you and finally tell you how I truly feel.

I want us to talk.

If you gave me a sign. Like responding to my last message, or even adding me on socials. I can take it from there.

I do want us to reconnect. I just need to know it's safe, and you are ready to take the step.

Meet me halfway, and I can take it from there.

We'll talk whenever you are ready to.

Please. 😢 I know you can’t be my friend I just literally need a distraction

Yes we stopped talking, but i can't stop thinking about you, every thing reminds me of you, you possessed my heart, my soul, and i have no problem with that, it just makes me so sad that i know we can never be together, I don't see myself talking with another person, you raised my standards really high that no one can reach them, i tried to stop listening to sad songs so i will try to move one, but even the happy ones remind me of you, what have you done to me sweetie?

I’m still here

I still want you.

Still want us together

Can’t get over you

No matter what

But wanted you to know my honest feeling

Haven’t given up

Just want to clear misunderstandings

Just frustrated

But my fault because haven’t asked for a real convo

I will today once I have my words in order

Spending all day on u and this connection today

xoxo

Im looking at the stars

And all I want is you ..

You know in seconds you recognize manipulation and gaslighting and falseness. You see things differently when you are no longer emotionally attched. You dont even see or feel the same way about your person. I personally don't know if you can come back from that. I am a true believer once somebody shows you who they are believe it.

I never truly understood that whole comment of ( You will never understand what you did to me. You will never understand what it took to look at you now and feel absolutely nothing for you.

You realize you did what you needed to do to survive But most importantly, once you stop surviving you will realize your love with misplaced...

In time you will slowly start recognizing who you are and what you need and you only got one life to live. Let nobody change how you see love or how you want to be loved.

to be cruel. I did it because I didn’t want to be observed by you. I felt stupid and over-exposed, like some idiot try- hard who just couldn’t get what everyone else probably already understood. I definitely had a massive vulnerability hangover.

Also, I was so angry that I caught myself devising manipulative posts to make you regret losing me. I caught myself wanting to rub your whole face in my beautiful life till you choked.

But that behavior is not aligned with my values so I removed the temptation. I do not play mean girl games. I am honest. I am direct. I am earnest to a fault. I am forthright, and with you I was very transparent.

It hurts me so much that you didn’t treat me with more gentleness and care. I really did think the world of you.

I think im starting to like you

You don’t judge me for the chaos that is currently my life

But you certainly help me forget

And that’s what I need right now

A little distraction, a little fun

And I think that’s what you need too from what

you’ve told me

So can I see you this week and we can have a

little fun?

It’s my turn to ask this time

I hate to tell you this, but reaching out to people about me really isn’t going to accomplish much. No one cares. I hope you’re okay though. I love you 🫂. I’m not going to throw the past in your face it’s fine forget about it. If you need someone I’m here. I hope you’re having a good day.

That I’m off having a fucking blast without you. But I’m not. I’m suffering too. This is a loss for me too and you know how big my feelings are.

It seems this whole time you’ve been trying to seem like a mystery and I fell for it. You’re no mystery you’re just a sad boring old man. That’s why I like you. That’s why I’ve always liked you but you insist on needing to be too mysterious to ever be known but I like you already

But I will let you tie me up

So there’s always that

😇

I thought of you several times today,even though I try so hard not to. There’s an ache in my chest that stabs me at odd hours,flashbacks and memories I try to ignore. I really wish I didn’t reopen the door.

And when you leave this world, may no more tears fall in your name… as you fade from memory, may all those you harmed find peace and light once more.

There’s been so many excuses for why you lied and cheated and why you kept lying. Now you’re telling me that you’re having seizures and that it might be a neurological issue. Why should I believe you now when it seems like just something else to save face.

Home, lying here, wishing you were next to me. Perhaps in my dreams.