I miss you so much and I can’t tell if you feel the same
I hate that I can’t read minds, I hate that we left with no closure we genuinely had so much in common so when you said you didn’t think we were compatible I almost laughed out of shock and a part of me feels like you also think it sounded ridiculous, you yourself didn’t know what was incompatible about us when I asked so a part of me wonders if you were scared to be vulnerable with me because I couldn’t help but noticed that pattern in you.
Currently the way things are are so confusing to me, despite the fact we are no contact your online activity is so complex and I genuinely can’t read what you feel at all, sometimes it seems like you don’t want the story to end either but other times it feels like I’ve been forgotten.
With no closure whatsoever all I’ve thought about was past memories which lead me to believe you may have trouble being vulnerable to others and if I’m right about that then I wish you would try again with me because I don’t want you to be scared about opening up to people in general.
I want to be that safe space for you, someone you could always talk to, someone to tell about your shitty days, happy moments, embarrassing situations and a shoulder to cry on.
I saw how you would close in on yourself when emotions became high and I wanted to do anything to show that I’m here for you no matter what.
I want nothing more than to hold you in my arms, go for picnics and walk my big goofy dog together, I still look at the picture I took of you two while on our walk, him staring directly at you desperately hoping you’d give him one of your chicken nuggets