Fusing and insys violences
TW: killing alters, fusing
>!Hi, for those who may know us, we are the Lopix Manor System. We almost never post on Reddit. I’m blurry right now, so I can’t say much about myself, but I want to talk about things… a bunch of things. I like hearing others’ experiences: it makes me feel safe, like I’m not alone going through stuff.!<
>!First, our host is probably fusing with one of our headmates, and she is really scared of losing herself in the process. Is there any advice or things you could say to help her feel safer about it?!<
>!Second, a month ago, a lot of things happened to us. So many things that internally everything became chaotic. Our host is now afraid because her relatives told her it was all her fault, and there was already some tension between her and some headmates. She doesn’t want to live, but she also doesn’t want to die, and she is scared that one of us might try to kill her or get rid of her. I’m just confused.!<
>!Even though I feel better now that the storm has passed, it still feels like it created a kind of battlefield internally. A lot of us started fighting due to stressful events. Our relatives also (probably not intentionally) encouraged this conflict by telling the host to get rid of us.!<
>!It’s not the first time, but with all the other things going on, stress is already very high, and tension is at its maximum. A simple wrong move can be interpreted as an attempt to hurt someone else.!<
>!I’ve tried meditating every day and writing positive things in my journal, but it’s not just about me… it’s about all of us, and my actions don’t seem to help anyone but myself.!<
>!Some of us feel at peace now that we are safe outside again (which is why the whole fusing between one of them and the Host I guess?), but others are on the edge of assaulting either someone else insys or outside...!<
What can I do? What did you do if you ever experienced any of this? How did it went for you?
Sorry if this is against the rules, I'm not used to post on reddit :') I will fix or delete right away if necessary