Breakdown during sleep regression
This is a little bit of mixed rant, but I just need to get some things of my chest. My LO is currently fighting sleep like crazy and just screams for hours until he falls asleep. Tonight I just broke down and literally sobbed whilst he screamed on me. I feel like I really don’t ever get a break. But then the voice in my head feels guilty and that this is what motherhood is. I hadn’t washed my hair in 9 days and washed it today and felt guilty that my LO had to sit in his bouncer for 15 minutes whilst I quickly washed and dried it. It’s like a constant cycle of feeling like I’m not doing enough but also like I never get a break. My LO nana came over to help out yesterday as I had 2 hours sleep in 36 hours but all he did was scream for me. I really appreciated her trying and I was able to quickly get some house work done. My partner works, but in a way I have started to envy him. He has a bath everyday, plays PlayStation, sits on his phone. He still spends time with LO, but I don’t feel like it’s as thoughtful maybe? I do every single bedtime routine, so I’m pretty much trapped from 6-onwards. I do the bedtime feed and the next 2, my partner takes the early one then goes to straight to work or takes LO for a few hours if he’s off but then needs a nap? I’m not sure if I’m just burnout and over analysing everything. I guess I just wanted to say what was on my mind and if anyone else if sort at this weird 4 month mark? I feel like baby is so alert and active yet does nothing. My hair is falling out like crazy, and for some reason if I miss my pill by even 1 hour (which is easy done with a newborn) I get horrific bleeding and cramps, did anyone else experience this?