u/BobcatIndividual3849

I am a young male and I have been stumped analyzing my character, and have no clue if I could be part of any spectrum. My main ordeal pertains specifically to relationships. I find myself wanting to connect with someone, and don’t struggle much in the early phases. The first months will be completely fine. However, as the relationship progresses, I start to lose feelings for and be annoyed by my partner. I start to feel guilty and eventually break it off. Anytime I’m talking to someone, everything I do for them and say to them feels strategic. It wasn’t always like this. It seems like it has gotten worse each time. But beyond relationships, sympathy is not my strong suit. I like to THINK I have a high eq but i haven’t a clue how other people may feel. I don’t let much get to me and I haven’t cried in maybe two years and it was because I was mad. I don’t want to talk to any family or friends about this because I don’t think any of them will understand me and I don’t want any of them to view me differently. I’ve briefly looked in to narcissism and I feel like I might resonate a little bit with communal and covert narcissism. Admittedly, I don’t know much about neurodivergence but I doubt it’s ADHD. My parents have never noticed or been concerned that I was anything of the sort. Any help/tips are appreciated!