I want my life to be like Walter white no I’m not joking I think at times if I should just get a PhD ànd become the brains of something etc why is a tv show more exciting than my day to day breathing life seriously.
I’m shorter than him I’m not really white I can go bald and develop a more slender look idk this is dumb but I’d rather live in a jar at this point life is so weird.
I have a feeling I’m wasting my life
It’s weird as you know on paper I have eveything going for me right? Career medical school interests in the field but like right now as jn currently I’m thinking me as thr base person is fucking up their own life
You know I don’t talk to people to do point that I struggle to talk outloud ! I’m just thinking to myself what am I doing wrong? I’m basically a failure in a literal way I don’t know I question what I’ll do career wise in the future after going through med school and getting all my degrees I’d want my own lab if possible idk this is kind of what I have but as a base person I feel sick or ill so wthing I know works for me is video games but I haven’t done that in so long and last time I did I had other things going on idk
I’m just saying I’m technically à loser it’s yeah life is the same like I take trips and such long car trips but eveything is still the same I need a type of change that makes me feel better but idk
Idk I have to check if I have any deadlines today I’m kind of throwing my life away but I question what I’d do and then idk I don’t know what I’m suppose to do nice
Idk I’m not different but my mindset my brain feels like idk maybe I need to push myself more out there which is kind of what I do to a degree I guess I’m saying I’m not living enough despite having time.
It has something to do with the idea of multiple realities you see every person is different ànd do different thing and have different reasons to do those things they do activities for certain reasons and so I try to say be the multiple of activities but I as a baseline see no reason as opposed to another person that does so basically my literal existence is capped by what I see worthy making it a limited reality by default.
I point at the idea of just a Different being overall they talk differently see life differently they seek certain things but I don’t it’s like seeing someone who find purpose in multiple areas without lacking à sense of reasoning that creates say fulfillment if I go do something just for doing it by reality is capped by that exact reality when I would go hiking I would do it just for doing it until I started going off trail when I watch TV I watch it under a capped mind maybe weird but I suffer by my own self.
I can put it this way the song is different but the background is the same
So I had a mechanic work on my car they misdiagnosed the issue ànd so the problem still stands obviously I’m going to pursue à refund BUT I live in my car so say I wanted to take it to court for say damages they caused to my pocket by not fixing the issue correctly say could I pull up receipts of motel stays that came from the botched job that recruited me to leave it at a different shop for a certain amount of days ànd does it on my apply to the days after the car fix was shit also yeah I’m gonna see if maybe they have something to do with my car not driving at all now so out that on them if possible but I’ll talk to the mechanic for that help please
Oh so car left the shop yesterday car failed completely this morning lol
I’d be looking for compensation form the list below
Tow truck
Possibly car repairs if the mechanic can connect that they caused further damage
Motel stays after it left the lot so starting today
It’s with a mechanic currently so yoh know I’d probably only get paid for how long it took the mechanic to get to it so probably one motel stay unfortunately but still
Money I hope to get
Tow truck for sure
Motel stays after the fact so starting today
And repairs if they caused further damage
Finally got vitamins and pea protein powder it at indeed tastes like peas but it reminds me of sunflower seeds it tastes like shit
Besides this I want it but a bicycle and do that like that’s all I want to do but it won’t be until December I don’t mind the cold at this point I hate this weather
Car broke down got a new alternator battery belt new rear brakes I got a good mechanic giy charged me real cheap for it
After this car continued to overheat ànd stall at stop signs took it to get the transmission fluid replaced for 100$ still didn’t work
Sent it to a transmission shop they replaced à thermostat still overheating so I called and they told me they’d check it out for free and give me discounts in total I’ve spent at-least 2k in car repairs within one week impressive!
They added new thermostat and BG cooling systems plus the diagnostic fee yes I got charged to fuck I’ll see what happens this week as I have to take it back I might reach out to my mechanic the one who helped while I was stranded as he charges extra cheap but not until after I find out what’s wrong with it they thiught it was fixed it’s not. It basically overheats so I’ll be driving then out of nowhere my RPM ànd speed is capped which is a safety mechanism after I get off on an exit reach à stop sign and proceed after the stop sign the RPMs climb but car is sluggish speeds slowly. This was happening before the transmission fluid was replaced which mu fluid was dirty so it was about time but it overheating is still an active issue unfortunately no check engine light aswell though I didn’t tell him that I had a check engine light in the past I poured XRP in the tank and it went away.
Im considering skipping Vegas ànd going straight to san Diego as the weather is better over there I can barely handle the current weather in my home state at the same time I just want to fall back to my normal routine as driving and being in a different city for days has been very depleting went to the beach only to turn around and leave instantly surprised thr car made it that far
Also I have the worst headache currently also I don’t know I’ll probably have to drive on Monday again I’m tired of driving and stuff besides this I spend a good chunk on motel rooms or did this week tired of leaking money
I don’t know if it’s a big number I might have my mechanic friend get it fixed but I’ll have to drive 8 hours still he’s a master of his craft ànd is àn overall great person to be around even if it is business.
I didn’t go to New Mexico I went to the beach I didn’t want to be in the desert for 4 days