u/Bobloda23

I think the hardest part of the breakup is that he would give what I wanted to everyone but me.

How he hooked up all the time before me, barely seemed interested in sex with me calling it low sex drive, then horny again after we broke up. We had sex before walking away and it was the most passion he ever gave. Breaks my heart that he’ll be passionate only when it’s over.

Said he used to be super romantic and giving in another relationship but because they hurt him he isn’t anymore.

How he can show interest in other peoples conversations but not mine.

How he can make plenty of time for his friends and family, but it always seemed I was an inconvenience.

It really fucks with my head, the neglect. And I know logically it’s because he’s avoiding being close to me from fear and it’s easier without “labels” or “pressure”, but it doesn’t help the pain. And It’s my self worth lacking that makes me think because he gave all I wanted to others that I’m not good enough. That something’s wrong with me. That part that wants to chase and prove to him I am worth something!

It opened my eyes to a lot, about the dynamic, him, and myself and the ways we think and trigger each other. Even after how lonely he made me feel I still can’t bring myself to hate him. Sometimes I wish I didn’t give so much love to people who don’t appreciate it, it destroys you