u/BornAwakened

Two nights ago, I meditated from 12 a.m. to about 12:45 a.m. This was only my second time meditating.

I quickly entered a deep state of relaxation and felt rushes of energy building at the base of my spine. I took deep breaths in and out, and every time I exhaled, this healing energy rushed up my back and into my upper body. Building energy at the base of my spine and sending it upward is something I've always been able to do, but I recently gained the ability to “charge” the energy using diaphragmatic breathing.

Then I felt a profound love and reached out in front of my face to receive the energy before me. When I did, I felt tingling in front of my face and on my hand. Several times, I would touch this field of loving, healing energy and then touch between my eyes to place it within me. The sensation was beautiful.

Soon after, as I sat there with my legs crossed and my hands resting in my lap, I started seeing a fluid purple-blue/indigo mass in the darkness of my closed eyes (first image shown). I started experiencing uncontrollable rapid eye movement. The beautiful mass of color slowly danced around, moving left and right, then growing and filling my vision. I smiled and felt joy in the deep relaxed state I was in.

After this experience, I felt such a wonderful freedom and weightlessness.

After going to bed, I remember waking to different hums and even consistent, unexplainable beeping sounds. Then I had a very meaningful dream:

I looked out toward the woods behind the house and a shockwave came from the south, blasting some of the pine trees down. I was then shown that structures and other areas nearby were also being knocked down by this force.

I ran to get my two daughters, took both of their hands, and half jumped/half flew down the staircase into the basement. The three of us landed on a big blanket at the bottom of the stairs. I could hear things outside being crushed and blown around.

Then I looked outside and the air was a thick gray color. I could barely see the grass, and everything was clouded by this smoke-like substance. That’s when I realized the smoke was entering the house through cracks. It slowly accumulated inside even though the doors and windows were closed. I started feeling it in my lungs.

But only moments later, everything cleared outside and it was a beautiful day. The air was fresh and clean. I immediately began opening windows around the house and felt the clean breeze pull away the little bit of smoke from inside. I felt the cool air on my skin and was so happy we were going to be okay.

I looked up a meaning out of curiosity:

“This dream indicates a powerful, albeit stressful, process of personal transformation, where a chaotic, overwhelming situation (shockwave/smoke) is followed by a necessary, beautiful, and peaceful renewal. The dream suggests you are on the verge of clearing out emotional, mental, or situational clutter to create a new, clearer reality for yourself.”

Not even three months ago, I finished writing the book about my life, about every otherworldly encounter and paranormal experience I’ve had since birth. Writing it brought an incredible amount of trauma to the surface, and my physical body reacted during the writing process.

During that almost two year period, rheumatologists, neurologists, gastroenterologists, etc couldn’t explain my symptoms, but deep down, I understood. For years, my nervous system had been carrying the weight of my trauma, and the unexplained symptoms slowly worsened over the past 11 or 12 years. Once I began bringing every memory I could recall to the surface (many are only fractions of whole experiences), those symptoms got out of control.

But ever since publishing, I’ve felt an overflowing sense of joy, and many of my symptoms have calmed right down. I’ve always known that we control our body with our mind and that we can self heal, but I am now being shown the fullness of this inner freedom, this control over my physical body down to the vibration of every cell. I'm being carried deeper into the true nature of being human, and all of the amazing abilities that come along with it.

I am so excited that now is the time to step further into my true identity and heal my entire body by choice, by intention. I'm finally ready for the healing I’ve needed for so long. I’m ready to dive deeper into meditation and healing. I’m just so excited and had to share this whole experience from last night.

Also, I read that the purple-blue/indigo mass I saw moving and growing during meditation is associated with the Third Eye Chakra, or Ajna. How amazing. I attached some information I found about seeing this color during meditation in the images.

Oh, and Happy Mother’s Day to all of the wonderful mothers out there!