An anxiously attached bading in need of advice
Hello! I'm not really sure about to do anymore and I feel lost. Sabi ng friends ko, security comes from the inside and I should find it in me first before trying to find it from the guy I am talking to.
For context, I have been talking to someone for more than a month now (which is woah, given that none of my past talking stages lasted this long lol). I am not scared to admit that I'm already attached, I would even consider myself "in-love" with this guy. He is just everything that I have been looking for: just suddenly knows I'm not okay, a forward-thinker in terms of relationship, knows how to comfort so well, the way he just moves is so beautiful I wanna be here to witness it. I've been receiving assurance naman pero medyo shaky ata? He said he liked me too. And I appreciate that. Siguro it's just the young age of mine and the fleeting jealousy of everything, but whenever he mentions something like "Saw this guy months ago and he was cute" or like "The barrista here is cute", I can't help but feel na parang option lang ako? Paki-ground man ako if ever that is the case, please. It lowkey feels like he's considering dating others pa (Which I'm cool with it, honestly. Pero sana sabihin sakin if ever.) Really just want to see him happy pero I don't wanna be kept until I'm not needed anymore ulit kasi that shit sucks.
Well, anyway, I might be overthinking lang talaga and I'm like 80% sure I am. But I'm still thinking of asking him kung ano na ba talaga nangyayari sa'min but I'm scared it'll turn into something far sinister. Helppppp, how do I ask him or SHOULD I EVEN ASK HIM? And how do I avoid being anxious?