I’m worried about my twin brother dying.
For a while I’ve been worried / sad / scared of my twin brother dying in the near future. He’s fine and healthy but I’ve been worried something will happen to him in the near future, whether it’ll be a reckless motorcycle accident or literally anything else.
My mind is thinking of all outcomes, funerals, empty online socials, my family being depressed, the day after him dying all of it. I feel like I’m grieving someone who is still alive. I have a bad feeling it will happen, no matter how I go about these thoughts, if I avoid him or talk to him more.
My brain is only thinking of him dying and no one else in my family, I look up to him and he’s the one I talked to and related to the most. I’ve also worried that this is all a premonition, a sign of it happening someday.