A fruit bowl, net-like and chromed
Price tag hanging where the fruit would be
Two weeks seeking a home
The length of my arm
A sign reads in white letters 'Poultry'
And nothing further.
Three wicker baskets dot the floor
Filled with goodies of unknown origin
Their handles stand tall
Would carry nicely
My phone and wallet and keys and some cash and coins
But I'm pretty sure that would be a purse.
What else is there?
Can I just be real here?
No wife no kids. I had a pet rabbit for eight years. He was my best good friend. I chose to have him put down today.
The whole thing was beautiful. He felt so much relief prior. I was petting him for an hour in the room and he was clicking his teeth the whole time - rabbit talk for 'safe and comfy'. And then he went, and it was okay! We felt happy for him. Details... details...
But now? Oh man. The waves of grief. They come and go.
I miss my friend.
Some effort while in the grocery store to become free from desire. Ridiculous, but, hey. What else is there to do?
Two particular things kept popping up - doesnt matter which things, really.. Thought of the downside of each - the other side of the coin. Then it was easy.
After - noticing the micro desires. While driving a short distance - the tiny tiny little desires never brought into awareness. 'Hope i can make this light'. Boom. desire.
And then. For a few minutes or moments or who knows - watching the wash cycle throw the clothes around.
I became the cold wash cycle. And the clothes. And the water and the soap and the washing machine and the fluorescent lights.
Finally through with the trudging thuraday and open to a random chat.
Veteran of NVC - i go as long as I can without making judgements.
You can judge me all you want tho - it's kinda funny after all.
I miss non-duality.
I can't say what I'm like - there's just no way. Surprisingly authenticm. I am, however, an idiot.
Im at a point where it's a lot to digest - hair blown back kinda thing. Does anyone know of any lectures on the matter?
Finally finally finally made it to that point in life where im looking for a simple plain ol text buddy. I dont care how old what gender what planet.
A bit about me - ive seen enough. Living in the here and now.
Hi
Workplace? Nope.
Restaurant? Nope.
In the car? Sure but not at red lights 🫣
I propose we build designated adult safe zones where dudes like me can practice his kung fu for the first time, etc.
Who do i need to contact for something like this?
Workaholic here, doing what he does best. Hiding away from the world enjoying himself doing the grind outside of business hours.
The old timey radio is on blast and the lights are dim. Looking forward to seeing a sunset here in about 45 minutes from a west facing window.
There are details. They are not important.
Anyone wanna chat?