u/Boujeef__

Hi. Has anyone else ever felt like they didn't want help? I'm a teenager and I've been struggling since I was 10, with family problems, etc. From the beginning, I never wanted to get better, I always wanted to keep suffering. It's like I found comfort in sadness, you know? It's not that I feel good while I'm depressed, but every time I feel even slightly happy it's boring. It's not bad, but, I don't know, I think I'm better when I'm sad. Honestly, I wish I could feel good when I was happy, but it's not possible.