u/Boxerbambi

Is there a resource that will help me find others in my city who are students of Tolle for discussion?

I love Tolle and his experience of living in the present which he teaches. I’ve listened to many videos. Read two of his books. I completely understand his perspective, and I have been able to be present in the ways that he describes. Still, I have an enormous amount of weight and pressure that is daunting. At 66 I have to start from the beginning in a way that I don’t want to, but need to. I’m not at a place where I can say. “Do what you love and the money will follow”. Putting all that aside, I simply cannot figure out how to, first, get to a state of presence when I’m as overwhelmed as I am presently. And, more difficult is having the consciousness to step back from the narratives. Of course, that’s the big challenge to experiencing presence - the addiction narratives we all experience in varying degrees. I hear myself saying how desperately I need to be present. And there’s that useless thought. I just can’t, as overwhelmed as I am right now, recognize when I’m in a narrative and let go and step back. I’m really twisted up about what is truly challenging in my life and twisted up that I don’t seem to be able to apply what I’ve learned from Tolle. This is the time when it’s so, so important to practice presence yet I feel so stuck. I feel like I’m growling like an angry bear. Guidance please.