Hard to accept that I will never have a partner
All my life, I'm hearing "when will you find a girlfriend?" , "is there a girl you like?", "when will you bring a girl home?" and I never have the guts to say never.
My face is too ugly and I have an ugly smile. That's the first thing. But I have extreme trust issues. To the point that I only have one friend that I do everything with. I've been made fun of my whole childhood by girls and guys alike.
I guess I can try therapy for that, but I can't imagine ever having a partner. I've been crying the past few nights.
Overall my life is good, it's just this aspect that stings and is hard as hell for me to accept.
I'm already on the self improvement stuff, it does help generally but not this feeling of wanting affection but being genuinely unable to achieve it.