Not sure why I'm sharing, but figured I'd couldn't be the only one. Colonist had become an addiction and it was actually impacting my life negatively. Less productive at work, less quality time with the family, overall worse mood. It truly became a source of anger and toxicity. We can all show very toxic sides while playing, I'm not perfect, I've done it too.
I decided that I'd stop playing and every day feels like it has 6 more hours. I sleep better, happier family dynamic, doing better in my business.
I understand that it's not Colonist fault. Maybe it was just not right for me. If you feel the same way, I encourage you to try giving it up for some time. Hope this helps someone.
Acknowledging it's very lame to blame a game for my issues. It's not the comoaniys fault. Nevertheless, I feel so much better without it.