I sometimes feel like leaving.
My husband got diagnosed BP1 with psychosis last year and struggled to stay on medication and stay away from marijuana vapes.
I sometimes mourn the things I’ve lost. A nice car, his steady income, or even just feeling safe at home. My husband’s mood can flip and he can say such mean vile things.
I feel like I have one foot out the door, but our 3 year old son adores him. My brother says I should leave that my son will forget him.
I feel like I deserve so much better. I hate that I’m living like this because we had a child together. He never treats his son the way he treats me yet, but I feel sad at the lost opportunity to have a husband who actually shows his love and support towards me. Instead I have BP1 always making me feel like I’m walking on egg shells.