Dissociate or Continue Being Inactive?
Edit: Disassociate
Hi, never thought I’d need to post this because I felt firm on my decision to be inactive (fade) but here goes.
Did anyone feel like formally sending a letter of Disassociation helped them actually move on from the borg? I converted as a teenager and I made many “friends” in the borg. Been inactive and many have soft shunned me but a few others still reach out. I also work with 3 JWs directly.
Been doing my best to move on but I haven’t been able to make friends and learning that I never truly addressed my family/personal trauma while in the Borg so it’s been hard to cope. I’ve been able to make one real friend but we don’t live in the same city and also don’t wanna throw all my emotional burdens/grief on him.
Considering seeking a therapist or counseling as well. I’m okay being solitary for the most part but I worry I won’t be able to make solid connections again. I do my best to stay positive everyday and find small moments of connection with clients at work or strangers and my family when I can but it’s not always easy.
Anyway, many “dear friends” reach out and I miss the community but I don’t want to go back and also feeling quite inauthentic in a way I didn’t expect. I’m essentially out but thankfully my coworkers don’t ask me abt it. We work for a small business so also concerned they’ll somehow gang up on me and make my work a nightmare… but probably just an irrational fear.
TLDR: did anyone feel like DAing helped them find closure and truly move on? Or was fading enough?