Last Pump And I Have All the Feels
Today was my last pump session at work (3 minutes only!) before my LO turns a year and I'm feeling a lot of mixed emotions(thanks weaning hormones)!
I'm so thankful I've been able to do this for a year, that I have a very supportive job who let me do four 30 minutes pumps a day and encouraged it. I'm thankful I have family and friends who let me talk endlessly about any problems I may have had along the way. I'm thankful my LO got over his dairy issues and now I can continue to feed him his solids with my small freezer stash I collected before going dairy-free (a whole other pain). And I'm thankful that I can still feed from the breast at night before bed.
I'm sad I can't continue to pump anymore and provide fresh milk during the day for him. I'm sad I can't take the time for myself at work as a breather. And I'm sad this is an end to a journey I've known for 365 days.
I'm so tired of cleaning bottles and pump supplies, worrying about having the right amount of milk a day ready, that I have may be producing less because of "xy&z". I'm tired of being worried about potentially ruining my coworkers schedules to pump and all of the mental capacity it takes to keep track of everything.
But, mostly, I'm proud of myself to have given this sacrifice to my child.
Thanks for letting me say my peace. Thank you everyone here who have helped my sanity on long day and late nights with your experiences and support.