I don't know what to do anymore.
A year ago, I made a post saying that I was a failure and I would end up homeless if I got a GED because I thought certain industries would widely accept diplomas. I was having emotional breakdowns over stuff that I cannot control, including not going back to high school. I was afraid I wouldn't make my family proud, even though most of them got a GED themselves (My aunt is about to get hers). My mom always told me that it's treated the same. I was in denial and told her it wasn't right for me (I still believe that, by the way). I only went to get it over with, not because I wanted it. After some time, I went to the classes, and the experience was great. I'm still skeptical about my future. I just want to have a job and move out. I want an amazing future. I turn 20 in January, and I am ashamed. I need to get my life together before I end up harming myself. I still have a long way to go. If I pass, I'll finish by summer or fall, and have the graduation ceremony next May.