I lost my youth.
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I’m 23 and lately I feel like I lost my youth even though I know I’m still young.
I don’t really go out much. My parents were never strict or controlling, so it’s not that. I just never enjoyed hanging out with people that much. Big groups make me feel disconnected, so I stayed home most of the time.
Now I’ve graduated and I’m trying to get a job, and suddenly I feel this sadness I can’t fully explain. It feels like everyone else has memories, fun stories, friendships, experiences, and I somehow missed all of that. Like my “fun years” passed without me even noticing.And when I open my gallery to look for memories, it just feels empty. I don’t have many pictures with friends, trips, random moments, or exciting memories to look back on. That part hurts more than I can explain.
The weird thing is I chose this life in a way. Nobody forced me to stay home. But now I look back and feel empty, like I never really lived my youth properly.
I don’t even know exactly what I’m grieving because I never wanted the party lifestyle either. I’m just sad and wondering if anyone else has ever felt this way.