Trying for a baby was the first time I stopped lying to myself about being fine
I spent my entire 20s brushing off symptoms that in hindsight were pretty loud. Cycles that were never quite regular, fatigue I blamed on work, hair thinning in a way I told myself was just stress. I was really good at explaining things away and I think a lot of us are because the alternative is sitting with the possibility that something might actually be wrong. When we started trying I just wanted to actually know what was going on inside my body for once. I ordered a hormone panel through Goodlabs and got back results that finally gave me something real to work with. My AMH was lower than expected for my age, my FSH was on the higher end, and my thyroid antibodies were elevated in a way nobody had flagged before. I had walked around with all of that for years and had no idea.
The part that gets me is that I wasn't sick enough to be taken seriously but I also wasn't fine.I was just in that middle space that a lot of women live in for too long, getting told their labs are normal without anyone ever running the right labs in the first place.
Did anyone else have a moment like this where something finally made you actually check?I just think about how long I walked around not knowing this.