u/BrightScientist373

So. After ko mag rant dito a few days ago about REVENGE GAMBLING, NAPIGILAN KONG SUMUGAL.

Pero kanina lang, ubos 185K in 10mins. Played the same Baccarat game in the same Bett88 — na lagi kong sinasabing rigged, ayun. Tinuluyan nga ako. Lagi na siyang lost connection.

Tama na tong kalokohan na to. Sakit na nga talaga itong meron ako. Para bang wala na akong respeto sa perang pinag hihirapan ko at mismong sa sarili ko.

Kailangan kong bumangon at i-ahon sarili ko sa mga pinag gagawa ko. Tama yung sinabi nung isang nag comment. Yung perang tinataya ko, pang isang buong taong sweldo na ng iba. Dahil sa sugal nawalan ng value ang pera sakin. Ngayon lugmok. Ito ata ang aral gustong ituro sakin ng Diyos. Walang mangyayari sa buhay ko kung paulit ulit akong bibigay sa tukso ng p*tanginang demonyong to.

Pano ba mag sisimula ulit? Pano mag pigil ng sarili? Minsan automatic nalang akong napapa laro. May pag asa pa bang maka ahon ako sa pagkaka utang ko?

Babalikan ko tong post na ito. Last day of betting. Susubukan ko lahat para iwasan to.

Right now, nasa point ako na since natalo ko ng 3M last May 11, galit na galit pa rin ako. Gusto kong “bawian kahit konti man lang ang Bett88”

Gusto kong mag cash in pero nanginginig rin ako sa takot na ipapatalo nanaman ako. Ngayon nagagalit ako sa Bett88 at sa sarili ko. Hindi ko alam pano pipigilan. Mas malalang adiksyon pa ata itong gambling kesa sa drugs o alcohol. At least sa mga yun, nakikita ng mga tao na lasing ka. Na high ka. Hindi mo rin kayang uminom ng 100 bote ng alak sa isang araw. Yang mga yan, nakikita ng ibang tao. Itong sugal, walang nakaka alam.

Ngayon galit lang ako. Gusto ko talagang BUMAWI. Kahit pa konti konti araw araw. Alam kong mali. Kaya ko gusto lang ipost dito kasi kailangan kong mailabas tong galit na to sa nga taong nakaka intindi. Hindi ko alam pano pigilan to.

I’m 40, single parent. Started playing in Bett88ph last April 2025.

Out of 7 children, I am the only one who has a business and it was doing okay— until things started to slow down. And my father stopped working as well. My mother is a housewife and my other siblings don’t really have stable jobs. Everyone relied on my father. And my father would rely on to me sometimes. This is due to the fact that I have a sister who was diagnosed with terminal cancer. My father was slowing down with work because he is already 76 years old. And he would spend at least 2M a month for my sister who has cancer.

I was okay on my own and with my 5yo child. But i felt that my income from my business was slowing down. So i turned to gambling— yes, you can call it greed. I was operating on fear and greed. And I didn’t want to face my problems head on. Gambling became my “escape” — only to find out that gambling is prison.

At first my bets were 100-500 range. I’d win some and lose some. Until there was a time I would win 8-15k a day. Of course I got hooked. I admit, I got greedy. At the same time, i thought, “i need this because i have a child to raise, my business is down, my sister / father need help” — but of course, those were LIES i told myself just to continue gambling.

Then it came to a point where in the money I would cash in no longer felt like money— it felt like it was just a game, or “monopoly money” — it only felt real when I lost it. Time went by, I won big but also lost even bigger. And every time that happened, I needed to take on loans.

My bets the past 6 months were 25k-100k per bet, on Baccarat. I won 1.8M then lost it all. Loaned 2.5M and bet again trying ti chase my losses. Lost all that loan too. I have a lot to pay for so I loaned again to pay for my bills and other living expenses. I thought Id stop gambling but seeing the money in my account only tempted me to go back to chasing my losses. Been trying to stop but there are times na nanginginig ako if i don’t place a bet. It’s has become a habit.

May 11– I lost 3M of my savings and had to take on a loan again. This time much higher loan, 6M. I told myself I wouldn’t touch it for gambling. Pero dinemonyo nanaman ako. I said “50k lang” — until umabot na ako sa 500k cash in. Napansin ko dati pa na Bett88 already knew my play. How I play. How much I would wager. And usually every time na mag mid month or mag end of the month, that’s when they start “manipulating” the game. Nagkaka lag sa pag labas ng cards. Kahit anong gawin ko, talagang nag hahang siya and papatalunin ka talaga.

Hindi sa sinisisi ko lang ang Bett88. It was my choice to play. Choice ko kung magkano itataya. So kasalanan ko lahat to. Before I lost 3M last May 11, I already lost 2.3M last January. Tumigil ako. Sabi ko stop na ako. Pero dumating sa point na na pressure nanaman ako kasi dinala na kapatid ko sa hospital and sinabihan na kami na wag na siyang ipapa revive pag dumating araw niya.

Ayoko isipin yun. So i went back to my “escape from reality” — kaya eto ngayon. Lugmok.

I want to stop gambling. Nag try ako sa gamblers anonymous ph. Pero nag relapse ako. Ayoko bumalik sa GA meeting kasi nahihiya ako na nag relapse ako… kahit alam kong hindi naman nila ako i-jujudge. Ako na mismo nag jujudge sa sarili ko. Nakakahiya. Nakaka awa. Ang tanga tanga ng mga pinag gagawa ko. Imbes na inipon ko nalang kinita ko sa business ko, pinambabayad ko nalang sa mga loans. Tapal system na nangyari.

Someone please help me, how do I stop. Ngayon alam ko nang hindi na talaga kakayanin ng business ko ang pag babayad sa mga utang ko gawa ng gambling. At hindi rin pwedeng puro tapal gagawin ko. Oo, naisip ko nang mawala sa mundong to. Pero iniisip ko nalang anak ko— ako lang ang meron siya. At sana naisip ko yan bago pa ako mag sugal.

Sa una ka lang talaga papapanalunin. Hanggang kakainin ka na nila ng buhay.

And alam kong kahit kasalanan ko to, aminado ako. Naging sakit ko na ito. Mas malala pa nga ata to kesa sa cancer ng kapatid ko. Kaya sana wag niyo na gayahin. RIGGED rin pati ang BETT88. Wag niyo na subukan.

Just wanted to let that out. Kailangan ko huminga. Pagod na pagod na ako. Please respect my post.