PTSD During 4th of July
I have been dreading the 4th. Even as an autistic child, I HATED fireworks... covered my ears and hid under the table with my dog.
Every time a firework goes off I jump, immediately get anxious, paranoid, clench my entire body, and feel the need to hide. No one seems to acknowledge how hard the 4th of July is for people with PTSD.
With PTSD you spend months, weeks, or days anticipating it. During the day on the 3rd and 4th I become so filled with dread. It is so much more difficult for me this year PTSD wise. I try to prep. I do take a sleeping pill early to drown out the noise. But god damn is it exhausting. I feel more terrified than I already normally am and have for the last 5 years now. I hate this day so much.
If you or someone you know struggles with PTSD please give them a little extra love today. I hope you guys are hanging in there. Thinking about you all today.