is he cheating?
For context, I (22f) have been with my boyfriend (25m) for 4 years now. We have had complications before when we have separated and he does have a tendency to lie until i find out the truth or trip him up on his words when it comes to something serious.
Now, please don’t get this twisted, these are things he has done when we were NOT together, then when we decided to get back together i wanted to discuss them so i knew the truth and the whole truth so we could move past it and have nothing to hide.
TMI, we haven’t been having as much sex recently as i’ve had some medical issues that i am trying to grasp a hold of. My body has changed slightly, but to me it is huge. I am still trying to get my head around this as i do struggle with low self esteem anyways. (So the changes definitely haven’t helped!)
So, I initiated spicy time and as i was touching him he jolted and gasped as if he was in pain. When i got a closer look at his penis i could see that there were scabs on it but only in a specific area. They didn’t look infected or anything but still.. Scabs on the penis?!
At first, he acted shocked like he didn’t know what it was or where it came from so I grabbed my phone and frantically started googling (PS I know you should never google health shit but I was in shock so let me off lmao) Suddenly he said it was from him masturbating DRY because we haven’t been having sex as often. First of all, this man is obsessed with lubrication and will constantly grab the lube or spit on himself when needs be. I have NEVER known any man to dry wank themselves?! Surely that’s fucking painful right?
At this point my head is reeling, I am panicking and don’t know what to think and he tries to reassure me it’s only been over what me and him have made in the past. We haven’t made any home tapes in about two years, I KNOW nobody can watch something that many times and not get bored.
Now, a lot of people won’t agree with me on this, but I did make it clear about my boundaries with porn before we got together. I don’t like it, never have because of past experiences with my ex partner. I believe it’s a bit trauma induced but that’s beside the point. He always said he was fine with that and doesn’t watch it anyway. He was more than welcome to either not get into a relationship with me once he knew this information or be honest and tell me he watches it so i can choose to walk away. He then admitted after lying about it that he has been watching it. This clearly upset me even more as he crossed my boundaries.
I guess my point is, what the fuck are the scabs from? Has he actually been dry masturbating? Am I overreacting? Is he cheating?
My head is reeling and I feel so betrayed and also don’t know what to think right now. Thoughts please!