u/Brilliant_Mind_8356

I just turned 18 in march but i quit vaping last year april after vaping for 3 years. I didn’t miss it at all surprisingly until recently, im getting my diploma and the stress of my never ending weekly assignments got to me. i’m DREADING having to tell my parents because i feel so embarrassed. my dumbass thought i would only use it when im feeling overwhelmed (instead of binge eating like i normally do) but now im using it constantly, just like before😣

I F(18) (just turned 18) went out drinking this weekend with my friend. she’s dating a cop and he bought his friends out to drink as well. I had 5 beers before going out and i felt drunk but not overly drunk. i met the cops friends and found out they’re all cops (there was 3 of them) and they’re all mid 20’s. one of the guys (26) bought me a beer but i stupidly didn’t go up to get it with him, and he was telling me “drink drink drink!!!” so i drunk it, thinking im safe with a bunch of cops. after another beer and one tequila shot i was passing out, which is weird because i normally drink way more then that and ive never been passing out like this. the 26 year old man wanted to get me another drink but the bar was closing, so instead he pulled me into the bathroom. we started kissing which was alright with me but i was passing out on the wall. he started kissing my neck and it was like i was having a weird out of body experience and this wasn’t happening to me. he was kissing me everywhere until he got to my vagina. i told him “i can’t” and he stopped there and we just kept kissing i think (the nights a bit blurry) my friend & her date were worried and came searching for me because she had my phone, and while this was all happening i was uncomfortable and wanted my phone. i don’t know how long we were in there for, apparently a while before we finally left. my friend told the cop she’s dating about it and he said “he was really drunk, im sorry she felt uncomfortable” my friends believe that he spiked me but im not sure, even if he didn’t he still shouldn’t have taken me into that bathroom and taken advantage of me, as he’s literally a cop & almost a decade older than me. i did not have any feelings whatsoever for this guy and i was fully covered up, jeans and a t-shirt. it all felt like a dream until the next day when there was a mark on my boob and i started crying. i feel gross. was this sexual assault? am i just overreacting? i posted this in another subreddit and men were saying “he stopped when you wanted him to stop, you both consented, he could report you” so now im unsure on what to believe. all i truely know is i never wanted to do any more then just kiss. and if i was coherent enough and not passing out i would’ve never gone in that bathroom. also i know just because hes a cop doesnt mean anything, but it feels like it should. it feels like he should be arresting people like this. and that hurts to think about.