20M feeling depressed lately
I remember being a child and thinking why am i so lonely/why am i not like the cool kids. I thought it was because i was fat. I lost the fat didn’t really make a difference. I was just that autistic weird nerd in class, had friends who would just stay in touch for the sake of it and that’s it. I grinded and joined a good college but still made the wrong decisions everytime, this time not joining the social clubs. Didn’t really have hobbies except history which i don’t like indulging in anymore because i read about great men while i am just a loser dying in corporate/academics. I feel no connection to my hometown nor to guys, girls in my college. My life is good in diet, exercise, sleep and everything yet i feel a void. Can someone who’s been through this suggest something