u/Brilliant_Till_2506

I am a 14 year old I grew up in a odd family i was a single child my father used to be an alcoholic for some time after he came back home from abroad he recovered but after that my parents relation was never good ever since then i mean they fight not everyday but quite a lot they dont have chemistry at all so they were lost in their own worlds always so i didnt get proper parental care which left me to be dull scared to talk to people addicted to a smartphone not wanting to go outside scared of everything lazy super insecure and addicted to masturbation even now i look around myself i dont know how to socialize im depressed i cant put my mind in anything i do and i have no presence of mind i feel like a complete idiot and a waste of a life