19F I have always been overweight. Since the age of 5-6 I was always a little LITTLE bigger maybe 2 sizes up from my friends.
I honestly don’t remember too much about my eating habits when I was younger I don’t have the best memory but my parents have always been bigger as well. My siblings are skinny but I’m overweighr. My mom definitely put the whole weight thing in my head always talking about others and growing up it was diet this diet that since she had her own weight issues.
but my current problem is I’m always having an urge to eat have something it my mouth to taste and feel the texture and swollow. I can keep eating my food until I feel sick just because I like the taste. I don’t think I have BED since I don’t go crazy with portions and a lot at a time. But even when I’m at a place where I feel hopeless and want to lose weight I always seem to just keep eating shit especially with cravings.
I’m currently on meds for hormones and part of the side effect is hunger suppression. And I am not hungry AT ALL but all I think about is food and my next meal.