u/Brooks5674

I cannot wait for my older brother to leave our house. Hes leaving a month from now and I am counting down the days that I can finally express my emotions in out house without him having a meltdown. I can’t wait until I can walk all around the entire house in silence instead of trying to find a spot to do my work without hearing him talk to himself. I’m so excited for family members to come over so I can finally talk to them like I used to without my brother clinging to them and asking them a whole bunch of stupid questions. I’m so excited for my entire day to be without him instead of it ending at 10:00am when he wakes up. I don’t know what else to say. I’m so happy and honestly, I couldn’t care what my brother does next as long as im not involved. I don’t know if this is normal but I for some reason want to forget him. He can fuck off for all I care.

I used to love when family members came over. Whether it was my grandparents, cousins, or anyone for that matter, but now I feel like I can’t anymore. I’m unable to spend any quality alone time with them since my brother is always next to them, talking their ear off about whatever hyperfixation he has, and I can’t deal with it anymore. I only see these guys for a few times twice a year, and I feel like they hate it when they come over because they know that have to stand there and just listen to my brother 24/7 until they decide to leave. I love spending time with them and my brother does too, but at the same time I want to just be alone with them sometimes, so I can actually have a conversation without it being interrupted. I want to tell my parents how I feel, but at the same time I know that they’ll just call me an asshole because they think I want my brother to be locked in his room or something. I don’t know anymore. I’m sorry if this isn’t making any sense

Hurley is a good album and is very overlooked only because it came after the shitshow that was raditude. I love almost every song on there and in my opinion, it is the real teal album, as it even feels like a mixture between both the green and blue album when listening to Hurley.

I’m scared. I’m going to be a junior in high school, and I feel like I’m way over my head. My classes are so hard, and my college situation is going to be even worse, I feel like I’m never going to amount to anything in life. I can’t deal with my parents and family always expecting me to go to a nice college, get a nice job, and live the American dream. I don’t necessarily blame them, I too want to live in a home i can afford and start a family, but it feels like too much, like everyone I know is expecting me to do better, and everytime I don’t it’s like I become my older brother. I already look so much like him that teachers in the hallway during school accidentally call me by his name, and tell me how similar we look. I don’t really know anymore, it’s 4:00am and I should really go to bed. I just want to get this off my chest so I’m sorry if it doesn’t make any sense. I just really don’t want to end up like him.