u/Broolooo

My (34F) husband (34M) has been living with depression and ADHD for most his life but was only diagnosed in late 2024.

On our 10 year anniversary, we went on a holiday. The first few days was nice but on the second to the last day, we had an argument. I stepped away to get some air and when I got back I found him.

I’ve been going to therapy to try to process this but I can’t help but think that this was my fault. Seeing his photos or videos is too painful as it gives me flashbacks on how I found him so I just avoid it. So there’s another level of guilt for not “grieving him properly”.