How was your first time being intimate with someone after your loss? I’m not ready yet but when I think about it, I’m pretty sure I’ll cry.
My fiance will be dead in the following weeks. For me he died as soon as his brain stopped breathing for him. When they told me he was brain dead.
I never got to show him the wedding dress, shoes I had planned for our special day. Has anyone else that didn’t get married choose to wear their wedding dress? I don’t care to be seen as a crazy widower. He deserves the chance to see how happy I was to marry him.
My partner passed two weeks ago. Everything feels impossible. I am actively avoiding all the “I can’t believe …” because every time I think it, my brain shows me again his sudden death (heart attack right next to me). That said, before he passed, before he loved me, he was a widower. He told me about grieving his late wife. He told me about their time together and how everything felt impossible after she left this world. The things he regretted and the ones he didn’t (widows fire being in the second category, for example). We celebrated her birthday even though I had to push a lot down in order to really be there for him. Now it feels like he was guiding me through how to grieve him. He was such a good man, always taking care of me with everything he had. We didn’t know he was also taking care of me by sharing his grief, but he was.
These nights are getting harder and harder . Everybody said it would get better with time . I don't think it's going to get better . Why did they tell me that he will get better it'll get easier . It's not it's hurting more and more . I need to go to the hospital because it's hurting so bad . I will not go I miss my angel I love her more than anything more than myself . We're just load of Puppets down here that's all this is if we want to go to heaven we have to be a puppet and listen and whatever he tells us for us to do apparently that's what that stupid Bible says well. I'm done I'm going to find my angel there's nothing stopping me for finding her we believe in each other we believe we are finding each other we can't be separated . Yes this post is messed up because I'm sleep deprived I won't go nowhere for help I don't want it I went on here because it's keeping me awake .
Hola busco a alguien como yo que esté pasando algo parecido a mí mi esposo se quitó la vida me dejó con un niño de 8 años no tengo amigas y mi hijo se siente solo alguien que esté igual que yo que tenga hijos para asernos amigas para que juegue mi hijo sé que pido mucho pero me siento bien mal nose como distraer a mi hijo extraña a su papá mucho y nose que aser gracias estoy en Los Ángeles california
My husband died a year and half ago, and I’m still having trouble with thinking about myself. Our lives were intertwined, we chose them to be, and particularly the cancer journey brought us so close to each other, even more precious and valuable than anything in my life. I still feel this happened to us, our life was changed, our path was altered….i can’t seem to find a sense of “my “ life, what happened to “me”….and therefore I can’t think of what my life would be like going forward cs in my head, it’s still “our “ life…and I’m having trouble planning “our” life without him.
Does this make sense to anyone? How long did it take any of you to feel like you again as a person, and not you as part of the entity between you and your partner?