Does anyone else feel guilty or like you have “cheated” when having a “good” day?
I just feel so much guilt today and realized that it’s just not fair that this wonderful good man isn’t here to enjoy it also. I rarely have good days but today is ok.
I always listen to audiobooks on my drive to work. Today the last voicemail Michael left me started playing. It totally startled me and I had to pull over. Has anyone else had this type of thing happen?
Also this morning I felt a touch on my foot and thought one of his cats came in and jumped on the bed but none were in there and the door was closed.
The day we pledged to love forever through sickness and in health. I told him so many times in the 3 months before he passed.
Missing him so much. And the hair…he cut it off when we lived on our boat, the wind kept blowing it in his face.
Damn I miss him💔❤️🩹
I am still so lost and broken. Some days I wouldn’t go downstairs if I didn’t have to feed his cats. I miss Michael so much and I wonder if I’ll ever be able to go a day without breaking down.
Today has been almost more than I can handle. I’m fearful of calling anyone (no one is even in the same state) because I know they look at caller id and think oh no it’s the crying again so here I am connecting with others who understand.
All I want to do is crawl into bed and sleep. Which is exactly what I do except to care for Michael’s cats. He is such a sucker for any stray that found him.
I’ve no idea how to get back to the home page. Please help, just got it.
When Michael and I married we decided to buy a boat instead of rings. We lived aboard for just over 4 years and this was such a happy time and holds some of our most precious memories.
He passed on April 9 and I’m thinking I want to buy a band and have it engraved. Am I crazy to want to do this after so many years?
I work Wednesday night through Saturday night so today is my Monday. I know I really need to go to work but it just gets harder every week. I’ve once again gotten no sleep. My eyes hurt so much from crying so much.
I just miss Michael so much and I’m still so broken without him. I just don’t know how to be without him.
My Michael passed at home. I went to work Wednesday night and when I got home Thursday morning he was gone. The next thing I knew our home was filled with strangers. The only thing I asked was to let me see him before he left just 1 more time.
When he was ready they came and got me from the room I was in. I gave him kisses and kisses and more kisses and lots of hugs. I also pet his hair back from his forehead.
I told him how much I loved him over and over and thanked him for loving me and for the beautiful life he gave me. Then I told him I didn’t want to but I had to say goodbye.
Now I have flashes where I see him laying on that thing looking like he’s asleep. Please tell me I’m not alone.
I lost Michael April 9 and I feel so much guilt. I keep thinking that if I had stayed home from work that night would he still be with me. I absolutely don’t know how to be without him. He is definitely my soulmate.
I know I should be at work right now but instead I’m in bed being lost and broken. I just couldn’t stop crying today so I never got the sleep I needed to drive 1&1/2 hours to work then do a 12 hour shift all night then the same drive back home to another day without Michael. I just don’t know how to be without him.
I lost my soulmate last month and I feel as if I didn’t appreciate everything he did for me. How does one deal with this?
I know he did so much but I don’t think I let him know just how much I appreciate it. It’s now tearing me apart.
I’m thinking of getting a new updated version and was wondering how to transfer books from my old one to my new one if I invest the money.