u/Marlow1771

My Michael passed at home. I went to work Wednesday night and when I got home Thursday morning he was gone. The next thing I knew our home was filled with strangers. The only thing I asked was to let me see him before he left just 1 more time.

When he was ready they came and got me from the room I was in. I gave him kisses and kisses and more kisses and lots of hugs. I also pet his hair back from his forehead.

I told him how much I loved him over and over and thanked him for loving me and for the beautiful life he gave me. Then I told him I didn’t want to but I had to say goodbye.

Now I have flashes where I see him laying on that thing looking like he’s asleep. Please tell me I’m not alone.

I lost Michael April 9 and I feel so much guilt. I keep thinking that if I had stayed home from work that night would he still be with me. I absolutely don’t know how to be without him. He is definitely my soulmate.

I know I should be at work right now but instead I’m in bed being lost and broken. I just couldn’t stop crying today so I never got the sleep I needed to drive 1&1/2 hours to work then do a 12 hour shift all night then the same drive back home to another day without Michael. I just don’t know how to be without him.

I lost my soulmate last month and I feel as if I didn’t appreciate everything he did for me. How does one deal with this?

I know he did so much but I don’t think I let him know just how much I appreciate it. It’s now tearing me apart.

I’m thinking of getting a new updated version and was wondering how to transfer books from my old one to my new one if I invest the money.