Felt rejected by my birth country
I was born in Hanoi, adopted as a baby, grew up a US American. Ive done 23andme and Im full viet. I dont speak Vietnamese. Tried studying it on my own and quit. Its a hard language and Im a lazy academic. Anyway I went to VN for the first time since baby and thank goodness my Dad had a few connections. The lady that nursed me in the orphanage toured me around North Vietnam. Ive known about her my whole life and was so gracious to finally meet her as was she. Shed take me around and introduce me to people and they would usually only ask me to speak Vietnamese for them (which i cant) and my Nurse would try to explain that im adopted but they would only stand there and look at me as an American. I was not well received. (Recently. Being told i have a filipino american military vibe) so i kinda get it. I flew to Vietnam naïve as fuck. Just like the us soldiers i thought I was gonna be greeted with flowers. Most strangers in vn wouldnt give me the time of day when they found out I dont speak. And i think to myself; why should they? Id probably do the same if some random soulseeking foreign person tried talking to me when im just trying to go about my Tuesday. Overall if not for my caretaker and other family friends or idve had a totally shit trip to my birthplace.