I barely graduated high school and I’m doing worse in college
I’m 19 year old dude living in SoCal and I always sucked at school and I don’t why. I also grew up in a Hispanic household and telling my parents I don’t want to go to college would literally get me kicked out or I have to start paying bills I already have a part time job but I’m not ready for that yet I just want my associates degree and peace out. Since 6th-8th grade I started caring a lot more about school especially since during school is when Covid hit so I really stopped giving a damn about school. High school came along and I messed around a lot during high school only reason I kept my grades up was because I wanted to play on the schools soccer and football team and needed at least a 2.0 gpa or better and I barely even kept that average. I always struggled with focusing on school and always ended up playing a game on my school laptop or watching a video to pass the time in school until I got home and almost never did my homework and if I did it was always the night it was due. Focusing and trying to study consistently were always my weak points which is weird because my parents always pointed out how I would be so focused when playing a video game, watching movies, binging shows, or even when drawing something or playing guitar. Why is school so different? I mean it’s the basic part of your life that would benefit someone long term why wouldn’t I want to focus in school? Eventually I graduated high school mind you barely and ended up going to a community college right after. I ended only having 2 classes because I signed up somewhat late due to me not having an actual ID a statistics class and a communications class. I ended up failing statistics because again I just couldn’t be bothered to be interested in the class material and almost never did the homework. I passed my communications class with a B- and I actually had fun in that class and enjoyed my time there. This semester I took four classes because I signed up on time it’s now nearing the end of the year and I failing literally every single class except my guitar class that I’m taking because I wanted to learn how to sight read for my instrument which I’m finding is very hard lol (if any music majors are reading this please help me out). I recently signed up for an art class during the summer for my college because I want to practice more as well. So what do I do? Am I cooked for college?